Many times I've told myself that I would never pick at my face again. The longest I've been able to persevere is about five days. After another minor picking session today and loathing myself afterwards, I've decided that making a post on this forum might help solidify my intention of never picking again. It's kind of comforting to see I'm not the only one with this problem, although I think my case isn't even that severe compared to other people on here.
I started picking when I was a teenager and have done so for about 5 years. I don't think it's got anything to do with OCD, to me it feels more like an addiction. I've thought about the reason I pick at my skin and I think I like(d) the relaxation and feeling of euphoria it gave me when I managed to succesfully remove some imperfection, even though I created an even larger imperfection in the process (that I was able to live with for some reason). Another major reason is that I want to feel in control of my own skin.
I'm going to draw a calendar on my whiteboard and draw a green cross (or something like that) through all the days I managed to not pick at my skin. My current goal is one month without picking. They say it takes 30 days to create a habit, so I'm guessing it also takes 30 days to break one ;) I've also informed the boyfriend of my destructive habit, so I'm hoping on lots of support from him :)
If anybody's got some more advice for me, please share! One thing I'm worried about is that I will feel I HAVE to pick because otherwise my skin will detoriate into a horrible mess. Like I said, I feel like I need to be in control: I don't trust my skin to keep itself "perfect". So if anybody knows of some non-harmful way to keep my skin into top condition, please do share. I've already started to exercise more and I think my diet is sufficiently healthy. I also wash my face with diluted apple cider vinegar in the morning and evening.
Thanks for reading my story and onwards to 30 pickfree days! :)