I've picked myself apart physically and emotionally. I don't know of anyone else who has been in the same circumstances (abused as a child) as I have been in. I thought this disorder was unusual, but I am so happy to see that there are others like me out here. I knew I was crazy when it came to this problem and I have never talked to anyone about the picking because I am so embarrassed about it. I hide it very well and have been doing it since I was 6. I'm in therapy for the abuse because aside from childhood abuse the cycle of abuse became a repetitive theme throughout adulthood and in picking my partners. Along with that came the continuation of anxiety, OCD and picking.
I want to be normal but I just can't come out of the closet on this one. This is a perfect place for me to be at this time.
If there is anyone else who is a picker as a result of childhood trauma I would love to hear from you. The world is a little less lonely when you find someone out there who is just like you are with the same problems. Hope to hear back from someone.... Anyone.