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I joined this site almost a year ago now and was way more motivated to battle this issue, it worked for a couple weeks my skin healed quite a bit I don't know where I fell off track or how but now this habit is worse than it's ever been. I've moved from my face to my chest, back, legs and arms. I've noticed the scars don't really go away so that constantly reminds me what I'm doing to myself and I feel like I'm going to be living with dotted scars all over my body for life. I'm 19 now almost 20 in a couple weeks but this has been going on since I was around 12. I'm getting very depressed and feel like I'm never going to stop especially since my motivation isn't as strong so my will power isn't quite there. I'm a perfectionist so I'm very hard on myself and can't stand having flaws which is why in my mind I feel like if I have a blemish it needs to be gone, so having acne doesn't help since every clogged pore gets squeezed, popped and tampered with until its bleeding then scabs and scars. I used to be able to go out all the time with my friends to the bar or club but that means wearing shirts that are fancier and usually go lower or have no sleeves sooo now having this issue travel to my chest and arms, I no longer go out. My friends drifted away because I've denied going out so many times. I have a new boyfriend now that I've been dating for 7 months. I told him about my issue and he's very supportive. He says looks don't matter, but I definitely get jealous whenever a girl goes by with flawless skin. I'm self conscious about my skin so I don't let him see any of my bad areas and pull away from him when he gets near, which is frustrating for him since he just wants me to be comfortable around him and reminds me he doesn't care about my flaws. I know he doesnt care but i care and am ashamed. He's a really great guy and I'm terrified to lose him especially since this issue is affecting him since I go to him everytime i get depressed about it which is very often. He has to deal with my sadness and low self esteem over and over again. Sometimes I take my anger out on him which I apologize for right after but he says it's getting frustrating. For now I'm probably going to vent on here instead of to him. I want to be strong and confident for him and myself, I do have hope of achieving that, it seems very hard though. I like how I can relate to so many people on this site because noone really understands. Everyone is like well just stop. Yea ....just stop....easier said than done especially coming from the people with flawless skin -__-. Well I'm probably going to post my progress on here weekly I feel like that'll help. If anyone knows any cures for scars or acne which actually work, I've tried everything from calamine lotion, lemon juice, vitamin e oil this other oil I believe it was bio oil not sure and for acne products I've tried everything from prescription from my doctor, pro active, acne.org products , every clean and clear product, cetaphil, and I have a personal microdermabrasion tool. I just want clear skin hopefully I can make progress again starting now we'll see how it goes. Whoever read all this thank you for taking the time.