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I am fairly new to picking in some respects atleast in the respect its effecting me now and I'm panicing that I'm going to look terrible on my wedding day! I've always bitten my nails and picked at scabs and wounds but never really thought of it as a major issue since most of them were smaller and things like misquito bites or minor stuff that wasn't too noticeable. Now I'm so greatful I found the place and can see that I'm not alone in these compulsions. I was sexually assaulted as a teenager and turned to cutting and managed to work through that alone but after another traumatic event in my life I realized while I may never have returned to cutting that this picking may be as bad or worse. Its like I pick a spot to make myself look better then it looks worse so I keep picking it as if that would actually help. Its a viscious circle. My current situation though I bought an extractor the type people will use in facials to extract white heads and black heads. Youre not supposed to press very hard but I guess this is where it becomes a problem that I end up pressing so hard that while I may remove a black head I also remove several layers of skin. Half the time the so called cligged pour im trying to clear probably isnt even clogged.. Right now I have three small marks on my chin a much bigger one under my right nostril and two between my eyes . None of them are too big but as soon as they start to scab the scabs drive me nuts and I pick up the tweezers just to even out the skin almost like its ocd. Then the mark just becomes bigger and more inflamed. I hate the dead dry skin that also seems to be around all the raw marks. So I pick that too with tweezers again making it bigger. I took the first steps this past week I believe. I saw a psychiatrist for the event that happened to me last september and was diagnosed with ptsd and given some meds that I think are helping. Today I threw out my extractor through much self argument. I also did some research finding this forum and realizing this is an actual problem and not alone which while I'm sad other people suffer from it. It does feel good not to be alone. That all being said, I'm trying to find the quickest way to heal the open raw wounds. I've been using neosporin. Tea tree oil. And today after reading stuff here calomine lotion as well as biotin and fish oil supplements I read may help. Does anyone have any other advice or words of encouragement? I'm really trying to stop. Seeing the damage I've done to my face just makes me want to cry. My fiance is being very supportive and has aalready promised me whatever treatments I need to get rid of any permenant scaring but first of course I have to prove I can stop doing it and of course it won't be before my wedding. I have a facial schedualed for next week. Its my short term goal for the wounds to all be healed to the point of being able to put vitamin e and mederma on them. Sorry for the long rambling post it actually just felt nice to kind of admit this all "out loud" I guess.