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Hello to everyone here, I know well the experience and agony you are all going through and I am so happy to have found an active forum where I can hopefully contribute some techniques I've been using, and to find support for my own problem. I'm 26 and I've been picking at least since I was 11, if not before. I'm so lucky to have found an amazing man and I'm getting married in most likely May 2014 (yay!). I was single for about18 months prior so my mania ran totally unchecked. Then I met him and decided to stop for him, but once when I complained about my spots he said 'I don't care about your spots'... and little did he know I felt like I'd been given permission to give up the fight.. :( 2 years on from that I suspected he would propose to me soon so I managed to go an entire week (my best record!) by telling myself 'he won't propose if I pick from now until then' (and he did!!) but I've just fallen back into the habit. We started living together and I thought I wouldn't get the chance to pick for hours.. that's true, but I can still find 5/10 minutes of alone time in front of a mirror.. ARGH! Now we're getting engagement photos in 10 days and I promised myself I wouldn't pick until then but I accidentally did a tiny bit earlier... I just need to stop! I feel sick when I think about it and I want to cry but when I'm standing in front of a mirror I often just trance out and am just overwhelmed by the urge and I feel so good in the moment I pick... then I instantly feel huge regret and shame. My brain is so stupid. I recently started a visualising thing where I 'practice picking' in private and brush the desired area and then I visualise a giant red stop sign and pull my hand away. I repeat this a few times a day so I am gradually making an association with moving my hand towards the area and thinking 'STOP!' because I often pick in my zombie-trance mode and don't realise I've done it until after I've already started. ...Wow, after bottling this up for 15 years I guess I had a lot to say!!! So No More Picking For The Next 10 days!! Anyone have any advice or any similar stories? If you're interested my main areas are face, chin, shoulders.