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Hi there, I started to pick skin, mainly on my arms and legs as a really young child, in fact I can't remember a time when I haven't had to deal with this affliction. This is the first time I have even searched online about this or written about it and it is bringing me to tears - I think because of the huge amount of shame I have always felt about it. I am in my 30s and I have just had a beautiful baby girl and this has been the catalyst for my need to get over this debilitating condition once and for all. I do not want her to see marks on me and think for a minute this is normal - I do not want her to suffer as I have over the years. I can clearly remember my mother sitting me down on my bed after a bath and scouring my arms and legs for spots and squeezing everything she could find, leaving me covered in these angry red marks and making my school life miserable as I attempted to hide the marks under cardigans in the summer and trying to find excuses to get out of games lessons. It followed that I became a compulsive skin picker as my mother had normalised this behaviour - she skin picks still and I can't bear it when I see her do it (she not only does it alone but unconsciously picks at herself constantly and gets angry when I tell her to stop). She'll sometimes notice scabs on me and say 'What's that?' as if she can't understand why I would have these marks on me - she is in complete denial of having had anything to do with my skin picking. So I have 2 issues: firstly I need to break the cycle of picking which has escalated since I gave birth, I think due to an increase in my anxiety levels caring for a newborn and due to hormone fluctuations, I find more imperfections in my skin. Secondly I don't think I can fully confront this without broaching the subject with my mother. I have a relatively good relationship with her and try not to let this get in the way but sometimes I don't want to speak to her and am very short tempered with her and I think this is the reason. I know that she will get angry and deny that she also needs help. She has been on anti-depressants for some years due to childhood trauma (and possibly the cause of her own skin picking) and I'm not sure how she would handle having to deal with another disorder (although the skin picking I'm sure is directly related to the childhood trauma). Any advice would be appreciated - I am currently looking into CBT and Hypnosis for helping to stop the picking (I am based in the UK), if anyone has any advice or experience. As for the issues with my mother - not sure where to start ..... help!!!