My Secrets..... I need someone out there to talk to! Please read and give me your advice.

I have back acne. I've been raped. I pick at my skin everyday. I have daddy issues. I am very insecure. I have no friends. I constantly feel alone & ugly.... I've considered suicide. I am crying right now. I would like to make friends but I'm to insecure. I want a boyfriend but have never felt comfortable in my own skin to be with one long term. I try to talk to my family but they never understand. They constantly assume I have an attitude instead of understanding that I am depressed. I want to confess my feelings to my dad, but he's so mean AMD intimidating. I'm lost. Could anyone offer words of wisdom and how they have gotten through this hardship. Please help me. Jasmine