I have been looking at this site for about 2 years and every time I almost post my story, then hesitate and don't do it. Admitting that you have a problem is a very hard first step, but I am at the point in my life that I have to do this. So, here we go (with slight hesitation still):
I have been picking for over 20 years. I do not know when it first started. I honestly never even knew it was a disorder until about 4 years ago when I searched it on the internet for the first time. I was very shocked when I got results back from the search!
I vaguely remember having issues in high school, but DEFINITELY not as bad as I have it now. I wore shorts and short sleeves and/or tank tops in junior high and high school. I played sports so I know I did (there are pictures to prove it so I know I didn't have the problem like I do now, not even close). Now, I do not. Always pants when I play sports no matter the temperature.
I have so many scars on my legs and arms that it is embarrassing. I get asked about the scars on my arms and I shrug my shoulders and don't answer the question. Right now, 99% of my issue is on my lower legs, below the knee. I sometimes get sores on my arms, usually no more than 5-10 though. On my legs, I can't say that. I probably have about 50 currently (about 35 on my left legs and 15 on my right). I really do not understand why I pick. I know stress is a factor but let's face it, stress is not going away. It's a part of life. I don't know what to expect or get out of this site/forum. It has always been comforting that there are others out there with the same issue, but at the same time it makes me very sad and somewhat depressed. I wouldn't wish this disorder on my worst enemy. No one understands, no one so I guess I am just hoping for some support and some ideas on how to stop. I have open sores most of the time. Not scabs. I am scared to try product on open sores for a few reasons and I guess I just need someone out there that has tried different things on OPEN sores that has at least helped. I am not looking for a miracle or this to be cured in a day or a week or even a month (although that would be nice wouldn't it?) but just ideas.
So, has anyone had any luck with open sores? Ointments, or medicine, or...anything?
I have never met anyone in my area with this issue either. Well, that I know of anyway. I mean, it's not like we run around telling people about it, right?
Like I said, I don't know what I am expecting from posting this. I guess I just feel like I'm sending this out into the world, and hoping for a miracle. Good luck to everyone and their own struggles with this disorder. :o) Maybe together we can figure all of this out.