30 day no picking challenge

well, my face looks absolutely terrible right now... i'm taking 6 classes in college and take every ounce of stress out through picking my face. i have no confidence right now, i have to cake on makeup to look presentable, which is discouraging because i don't like looking completely unnatural. every since the age of 12-13 i've had consistent acne and unusually oily skin. i have had the following red/blue light treatments, dermabrasion, chemical peels, doxy/mino antibiotics, assortment of vitamins. the only thing i haven't tried was accutane, the reason being was the extravagant cost. my challenge i'm presenting does not show me results, i will in fact opt for accutane. (which my term recommended) i'm saddened that i've dodged several gatherings within the last 8-9 years do to this fucking acne. so here is to day 1, which shall start tomorrow since i picked my face plenty of times today. my regiment regarding cleansing is using the acne-free severe kit which has steps 1-4, to help dry up my acne and scaring (it has a retinol complex cream) i have had great success with it before, as long as i don't pick my face for no reason. i guess i can elaborate on my picking too, i pick no matter what.. whether my face is clear it is always short lived because i'm so used to picking that it becomes second nature. i do it consciously, unconsciously, boredom, etc. whatever life provides in the stress area, i take it out on my face. i'm assured it makes my depression worse and all around triggers other unnecessary mental issues. i plan on updating daily to provide a detailed description of how my face is doing without touching/picking. i'm going to give the full report of whats going on now 17 active pimples all over but majority are on my cheeks, lots of scarring and pink hyper-pigmentation, very oily skin. bleh D: