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October 22, 2013

I feel that was kinda short so I'm just gonna write about my problem. I'm nineteen, I think I've been picking for 3 years or so. It started when I first got acne, and it really wasn't bad. This last year has been the worst. I found out about this problem a year ago, and since then I've been trying to stop; i've made calendars in which I would mark the days I picked, or I would write inspirational quotes and put them as my phone background to be reminded. I've tried avoiding mirrors, mentally reminding myself "when you go to the bathroom is in and out, you dont get to stand in front of the mirror for more than a couple of seconds", and even trying to not touch my skin at all, which is almost impossible because you have to be extra focused and that's not a way of living. Sometimes I do fine, some other times it feels like I can't even go a day without doing it. It sucks. I hate it. And I try not to be so hard on myself because it really makes me miserable and it's not like I want it or like I'm not trying to get rid of the problem. I also am trying to stop using products and make up, just washing with natural products, and if I manage to get my skin looking normal again I'll give it a try. Honestly, sometimes I feel like all this attention that we give to the skin even if it's to cure the problem makes us paranoid and crazy about it. What I think would be IDEAL is if we could just let it go, forget about our skin, even if it's looking good or bad, just forget about it, stop stressing, just stop thinking about our face or whatever part of the body we pick at. But that's way too hard, but I think it's worth a shot. Not now obviously because writing about this and doing a challenge is not letting go at all, but i think is what i need at the moment. Also, I NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT MY SKIN IS NOT EVER GONNA BE PERFECT, but if I don't pick it is definitly going to get BETTER and what's most important, HEALTHY. So that's that... I just needed to write some more. Thanks if you read it and sorry if it's annoying.
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October 22, 2013

I"M WITH YOU! We can do it.
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October 23, 2013

1. First day was actually easy. Trying to keep my mind occupied and been gone most of the day and now at night I don't even feel like picking. I think the real challenge will come when my face starts clearing and looking better. Then some serious focus will be required. Let's see how tomorrow goes. Most of the redness is gone, I just have some red dots here and there and some scabs. Let's keep this going one day at a time.
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October 24, 2013

2. Almost picked today while I was plucking my eye brows. I stood there for 5 minutes feeling my face and looking at it but I managed not to do damage so that's good. Proud of myself. Skin's clearing up slowly, I've been putting chamomille and it seems to help. My face feels fresh and soft and since it is an antibacterial it's great. I'm not using any products, clensing with jojoba oil which I thought was weird but turns out it isn't, and it keeps my face hydrated and doesn't make me break out. I have 2 spots on my forehead, and red patches on my chin, and both sides of my mouth, and a scab between my eye brows. I'm getting anxious though, because I feel so happy and commited but I'm scared I'll have an episode of picking and all of this energy and feeling good about myself will go away. I guess it's normal to feel scared after failing so many times but yeah, I think I just need to focus and love my skin with its imperfections, pimples, scabs, little bumps and whatever. I really have to take care of it, otherwise I will probably have some serious issues with it in the future. I have to remember how my skin was before and how different it is now. Its way more sensitive and fragile and that's why I have to really let it heal and treat ir very well. So... let's keep counting.
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October 26, 2013

3. Didn't pick today either. I'm discouraged though. I keep reading everywhere that will power does not work with this and I'm just like... this is not gonna work. I'm scared. I'm scared I wont make it. I think this is somehow helpful though, maybe being scared won't make me get confortable or stop being focused. I need to do this. And it's awful because I'm doubting I can and that's just... no. I have to do this. I'm sure other people have done it. We should be capable of controlling ourselves, I own myself, it's me who is doing this and I know I can stop it. I understand that part of me but I don't want it to want to pick anymore. I don't even know if this makes sense Anyway, day 3, I have to keep going, and this is my motto. "We can do anything if we stick to it long enough"
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October 27, 2013

4. Didn't pick. I'm really proud of myself. That's 4 days right there.I have to keep this going. Skins looking good, i have some red marks here and there, and a pimple in my forehead that I have managed to leave alone, I don't even know how. Really happy. Just a comment, I usually pick on day 5 so I have to be extra careful tomorrow. Can't be distracted. I can do this.
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October 27, 2013

Good luck for tomorrow, you can do it! Day 3 was always the tough one for me but I'm currently on day 15 and no serious picking has been done! My skin is slowly clearing up and my red marks are fading! I tnink you just have to keep telling yourself it is possible and when you start to see the progress your skin makes even in such a short time of no picking it really gives you the boost and confidence you need :-) x
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October 27, 2013

Thank you so much! I'm doing fine for now but your comment made me feel better. 15 days is wow, i don't even know. I hope I can make it to 15 days too. Good luck to you too. xx
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October 28, 2013

5. Honestly I don't even know how I got through the day without picking. I only popped a small whitehead on my chin and I stepped away from the mirror fast. And I didn't mean to but I scratched one I had on my forehead. So I feel fine about it. Anyway, I had the shittiest day today. Feeling lonely and sad and fighting with everyone and feeling anxious and needing to get the hell out of here. So with all of those happy happy thoughts it is AMAZING that I didn't pick. I'm just, wow. Maybe I was too tired or maybe I just really needed to get on here and be like, i'm so proud because even though I had the most awful day I'm still looking fine. I was feeling terrible thinking about how my life has changed this past year and how I feel like I lost half of my friends and how I feel like I belong nowhere, and through all of this I was like, well, if my life is a mess right now, I'm going to make my face be the ONLY thing pretty and nice. And not the other way around like it used to be. Everything was fine but my face. Now everything sucks but my face. Anyway, I think i'm just a little too emotional these days. I hope I can keep this up. Actually I AM going to.
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October 28, 2013

6. So I just fucked everything up. Great. And all because a stupid argument with my parents. Y locked myself in the bathroom and stayed there and then I started telling myself how I wouldn't pick, and to "test" me I started imagining myself picking and at the same time telling myself how I don't need it. And then I went to wash my face. And I couldn't stop. I picked both sides of my nose, 2 pimples in my forehead and both sides of my mouth. At least my chin is sort of okay. An my forehead... I'm praying that it isn't to screwed up because it is the most sensitive part of my face. And of course now I'm a mess. Crying, swollen face... Just wow. I thought I could do this but maybe I just' can't. I was doing so good. How can i possibly be that stupid. I hope when I wake up tomorrow there's not a lot of damage done. I'm going to sleep because I know if I get up I'm going to end up picking again. God I'm so disappointed it hurts.
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October 28, 2013

Of course I had to get up and finish what I started. Pathetic. Starting over tomorrow.
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October 29, 2013

Today is my first day of no picking . I don´t ever want to pick again if it really isn´t absolutely necessary. It´s ridiculous how tough it is not to pick but I would like to try to be here for you and I think this page will help me get rid of this bad habit-addiction-obsession.
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October 29, 2013

Thank you. I think you just have to be really sure that you want to stop and that you're worth the effort, otherwise you won't try your hardest. Good luck x
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October 29, 2013

I am a cheek biter. Have been for many, many years and want badly to stop. I can't take it anymore. I have often wondered also what is wrong with me. This is definitely ocd and it happened in childhood. I am sure of it. My brother bites his fingers, the skin to the knuckles. Always has bandages on many fingers at any given day.
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October 29, 2013

You know what I was thinking today? I ate dates with seeds.. and if you notice that you have started biting you should put something in your mouth, like the seed, and play around or bite it... Of course putting some old seed in your mouth is not exactly possible every next day maybe but I don´t know. I will figure something out for myself at least because I keep imagining that if I can´t stop biting, I´ll end up with some mouth cancer. Of course OCD is something bigger to deal with but I´ll try on my own at first. And maybe some day is possible to stop with the seed aswell.
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October 29, 2013

1x. Sooo, i'm back at the beginning but feeling so much better. What seems to be helping is going deep in thought about my skin and why i feel the way i feel about it. probably tomorrow i will sit down with paper and pencil and start writing my frustrations and my beliefs and stuff and i know it will help me. but yeah, i read somewhere that skin is just that, SKIN. and we souldn't give it all that attention getting to the point of almost going crazy. pimples and scabs are meaningless and they will go away. just let them be. so anyway, face looking worse but hopefully it will heal fast enough. just gonna let it heal and not obsess over it :)
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October 30, 2013

2x. Day two. My chin and forehead have some pimples and redness going on. I picked a couple of them but i don't really care about it because i didn't keep going. it was just 2 normal pimples anyone would pick. So anyway, I can't wait for my skin to become clear again. It deserves to be treated better so i am doing that. Being gentle and washing with chamomille which seems to help a lot. And trying to cut down make up. I will keep this up and succeed.
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November 02, 2013

4x. Day four. No picking besides another pimple. My face is taking longer to heal than last time but to be honest i don't blame it. I'll just be patient and let it do whatever it needs to do. Still have to work with my feelings to figure out why i feel like i need to pick. I think i'm scared of having clear skin. Like, i can't picture myself with clear skin for longer than 2 days. I don't know what will happen if I don't ever pick at it again. Will it stay clean or not? Maybe that's why i'm picking, because I know what happens when I do it. But i don't know what will happen if I don't do it so I guess I'm just scared that what may happen is even worse than what happens when I pick. Now that I wrote it it seems pretty stupid and kind of twisted. Anyway, I'll keep this up and tomorrow I'll have to think about all this.
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November 04, 2013

I totally get that twisted logic. I too know what happens to my skin when I pick--but at least the impurity, the gunk, is out. I am not sure it will go away if I leave my skin alone so I intervene instead of just tolerating the bumps for a few days or weeks until they go away, which I bet they do. So it's getting used to that itchy "tolerating" feeling that's hard for me bc when I see a spot I want to eradicate it immediately, consequences or not.
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November 06, 2013

Omg exactly! I hate to think that way though. We have to convince ourselves that the body is amazing and it takes care of things on its own. And shake off that feeling of being "clean" after you pick. Everyone has pores and many people have them and don't pick at them and their skin is perfectly fine. So why can't we just do that? Ugh
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November 03, 2013

5x. So I picked a little bit today. Nothing bad though, so I'm not going to count it. and I didn't even feel anxious or sad or consumed by it.. i'm still trying to figure out it that is a good thing or not. At least I was able to stop and I just popped and didn't dig in my skin like crazy, and i told myself to stop and I calmly did. This is weird but I think im getting better at letting my face do its thing and stop worrying so much. I started using skeyndor cleansing foam once a day and if any of you have used it i'd love to hear how it worked for you.
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November 04, 2013

1xx. Din't pick at all. My face looks okay I guess, forehead is red and some pimples are forming all around, but nothing to get anxious about, make up covers it all. I'm starting back at day one because I really want to get this right and even though yesterday's picking wasn't bad at all I feel like a cheater if I keep counting lol. So yep, I'm back stronger than ever. I have my triggers figured out, and what I'm gnna try to do is accept myself, and whenever i get the urge just notice it but chose not to give in. I don't know if this makes sense but it's been working out for me today, even with feeling my face which I'm never aware of doing it. Anyway, let's see how this goes. Only thing making me a bit mad is the fact that I've already slipped twice andddd.. well it sucks a lot to be honest. I would be 2 weeks clean but oh well, you may have to fight a battle more than once to win it. oh, AND on the bright side, in 2 weeks I've only picked twice! That's better tthan nothing.
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November 04, 2013

Oh and just to keep record, I got the urge 3 times or so while at home. I noticed it, accepted, and started doing something else to keep my mind off it. In class I caught myself feeling my face and immediatly stopped. So one step at a time.
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November 05, 2013

2xx. No picking. Just one pimple and stopped right after. I've been getting the urge to pick all day cause my forehead feels bumpy and dry with all the scabs but i've ignored it so that's good. right now im in such a good mood because pimples don't even bother me really, only if they hurt and some do. but like i was in class and i wasn't self concious about my face even though make up was starting to wear off and my forehead looked shiny and kinda gross in my opinion but i didn't freak out over it. that's progress!
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November 06, 2013

3xx. No picking, same as yesterday. My forehead is super congested right now, a lot of whiteheads, i don't know what to think. It's my fault obviously but it's not clearing up and i'm starting to freak out a little bit. Maybe it has to do with the Skeyndor foam.. my face has been looking worse these days. I think I'm gonna give it untill sunday to see if there's a difference and if not i'll go back to my natural stuff. I just keep telling myself that if i'm patient it will all be worth it. Just let it heal on its own and don't try to rush the process because it may get worse. Anyway, been doing really good ignoring my urges. Just noticing them and right in that moment start doing something else.
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November 07, 2013

4xx. No picking. I did pop 2 little pimples but nothing bad. I just can't wait for my face to really clear up.
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November 08, 2013

5xx. No picking at all. My face seems clearer now, i still have some scars and scabs but they'll go away hopefully. I've been wanting to pick my bumps a lot, but i've managed the urge.
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November 10, 2013

6xx. No picking at all. This is as far as i've previously made it. Yessss, let's keep this up :) Its hard to control the urges though, but not as bad as it could be. Everytime I feeel a bump or pimple i cringe though. Still i am doing pretty good.
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November 10, 2013

7xx. Did some picking today. The reason was stress pretty much. And the fact that my face is still congested after a weak, so i'm starting to use only natural products again. My face has been feeling so greasy all the time and ugh. I've realized this is nothing but a process, and that i'm getting better and better at it, today i didn't want to pick everything in my face, just some pimples and big bumps, so that's good. i really didn't damage it at all. I'm not going to start counting because this is like i said, a process in which i'm suppose to get better and learn, so it's just a continuous thing that i'll have to work on day by day. I think journaling here really helps though. And maybe i'll always pick a pimple once in a while, but the fact is that i don't feel like getting everything out for no reason. Maybe overtime i'll get better at this and stop caring about my imperfections all together.
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November 11, 2013

8xx. No picking. Didn't even got the urge!
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November 13, 2013

I picked last night. Nothing bad but i'm still mad at myself because i didn't even see it coming.
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November 16, 2013

I picked today. I was doing fine. I didn't even have a reason too. I am so scared about the marks and scars i dont even know how to stop. it seems like i have it under control and some days later i've lost it again. it's frustrating. I don't know what to do anymore.
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November 18, 2013

I hope that you're doing better, best of luck
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November 22, 2013

So tired of trying and failing. I don't even feel like making an effort to stop anymore. And my skin gets worse everyday and i just can't take it anymore. I hate this. I don't want to give up but it feels like i already did.
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November 23, 2013

I was feeling the same yesterday. But we should try. I took a photo of my ugly self to see every time i think of picking. I will also get a mask to put if I´m on the edge, clay mask. I will keep taking photos and see how I heal. Maybe you should do the same. Let your skin heal, try to let it get stronger and you will see that it won´t even need so much picking. Just force yourself to do anything else when you are about to and staring the mirror. Please, lets do this together!
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November 23, 2013

Alright, maybe i should try that. I bought coconut oil and it seems to be helping a little with the healing. Good luck and if you have any advice i'd apreciate it. I think i've tried everything. I recommend keeping busy or repeating an inspirational quote whenever you get the urge. But i always end up failing. And believeng you deserve to stop because if you always think you are going to fail you won't try as hard as you can.
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November 23, 2013

I totally hear you. I feel like the past year has been full of fits and starts for me on the picking front. I pick my KP bumps (on the upper arms) when I have them and bc they've gone away, I'm not picking but I know the compulsion still lurks inside. Don't lose faith. I think it takes a ton of slips to start a good stretch of not picking! xValentine
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November 23, 2013

I hadn't known this was even a disorder I thought there was jus something wrong with meim so embarrassed of this weird thing is I don pick my face but my whole body all of it is just scabs its hideous n when I think about how ugly it is n sore I do it more I can't stop I don't get intimate n I am so embarrassed of my self I have to drag myself into the shower I'm really pretty buti feel so ugly what do I do?
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November 25, 2013

I haven't kept up of my "progress". I picked today, nothing bad but still. I've been putting coconut oil in my skin which has been helping a lot with inflammation and such. But if i keep picking it really doesn't matter what i put on my face so i better get it together and have a real attempt at stopping. My schedule is changed and i'm not happy with it so i feel sad and frustrated and i think it's not gonna work if i try to stop now, but i'll be on this schedule for a month so i can't afford letting myself pick either, which i've been doing so... i don't know this is so confusing. I used to be determined to stop and right now i feel so out of focus, like i haven't got the time or the energy to try. It sucks really. My goal is to have okay skin by christmas but i really need to start now. Since i don't really have time to write here i'm gonna have to find another way to keep up. I don't know if I should put make up on and leave it for some days untill i'm healed or if I should put chamomille or what. The make up thing helps because I don't strip my face and it feels protected and i don't get to see the redness as much because i just but make up over make up and so on. I don't knowwww ugh.
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November 26, 2013

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