my new piercings will never heal

i have 20 piercings in all. i pierce my own ears. I pierced the last two spots on my ears over 5 weeks ago, so on any ordinary person, they would DEFINITELY be healed by now. but of course i cant let them heal. i pick and pick and pick. and then i eat the scabs. its all one giant fucking routine. it feels like they're never going to heal.