I'm new here, 33 yrs old, have been picking since puberty. I'm ready to STOP! I looked online 8 years ago but there weren't nearly the resources then as there is now, Praise God there is more help available now and understanding about this issue. I can't "just stop" because it has an adrenaline relieving factor for stress or worry. I recognize there is some feeling I'm trying to soothe or avoid by picking. Sometimes I will feel a blemish inadvertently first and then attach a feeling to it. As if I smooth my skin the real problem will go away. And it's a lie that my skin will be automatically smooth...even if I remove a blackhead the redness will be there. No one noticed the blackhead but me. Now anyone would notice the red spot. When my skin starts to look good again I forget how far I've come...Lord, help me keep this in perspective. Forgive me for forgetting how much you've done for me and taking things into "my own hands." I am not perfect but by your sacrifice you make me new!
So...for two nights now I have tried to identify the thought that's bugging me and talk out the truth to it...like Okay, I am worried she will take offense to how I worded that statement, is that going to change things from here forward? What if...what if...If only...if only...STOP!!! 1. I stated the facts, I was not rude. 2. I am not a mind reader. 3. I know her she's not the type to hold grudges. 4. Even if she did she would know I didn't mean any harm. 5. I can not please everyone regardless. 6. It's going to be okay. 7. I will respect my body that God gave me and not hurt it. 8. I will use my hands for love and acceptance, my skin is not the issue. 9. Lord, you already took my burdens on the cross. 10. Make my thoughts and my hands bring Glory to your name! .