Curious

I've had eczema my whole life, I'm almost 20. And it has gotten worse as I got older but I have a better hold on it now. But I still have these few spots that I consistently pick at, they scab over and I pick at them again, making them worse. I know what happens when I actually let them heal, most of my body has, but I can't seem to let those specific spots go. It's like my go to whenever I'm stressed or bored. But on top of this, I like seeing the skin I peel off, I like holding it, seeing the imperfection in my hands. Does anyone else feel this way too? I feel so alone and my family just says to stop. If only it was that simple.