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May 16, 2009

P.S. If anyone would like to have a supportive friend in this ongoing struggle, you can email me at KASP19@live.com. I would find it very helpful to have someone there who I can trust to understand my feeling of helplessness, and whom can share their experiences and fears, their triumphs and failures and anything else.
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May 19, 2009

This sounds so familiar. I am 23 and have been picking since I was a junior in high school. It starts just as you describe - after a stressful situation, an argument, or sometimes just because I am bored. Today I had a horribly stressful day at work and on my way home I felt so much anxiety and frustration I could barely stand it. When I got home I began picking my face and aggressively "searching" the skin for anything I could find to pick. I already had scars from two days ago but I still tried to find new imperfections to pick. I often pick for hours on end and end up extremely embarrassed of my appearance. I have canceled dates or outings with friends, called of work, and refused to leave the house because of what I had done to myself. The worst experiences are the next day when I wake up in the morning and have somewhat forgotten the picking session I had the night before only to find my face a complete mess in the mirror. Covering it up with makeup is an agonizing and time consuming process because I know that people can still see what I have done. I have even been asked by an unknowing friend "What happened to your face!?!". People do not understand because one day my face will be perfectly clear and the next day I could have dozens of bloody scars on my face from picking at nothing. During picking I know I am doing something wrong but I just don't care. I feel like somehow, in some sick way, this will be improving my skin in the long run. I often think to myself that if I just squeeze out all of these imperfections then it will heal over into a beautiful fresh complexion. It of course never does. I just go back to picking in a day or two. I have not gone for more than 5 days without severely picking my face since I started this sick habit. It is not just limited to my face. I also pick my back arms, shoulders, scalp, and feet. Any idle time that I have you can guarantee that my hands will be searching my body for imperfections. When I'm watching TV, at the computer, riding in the car, at my desk at work....I'm always searching for things to pick. I'm sure people have noticed this obsessive tendency that I have although I try to hide it as best I can. I currently am engaged and living with my fiancee which has admittedly helped me to curb my picking habits. Whenever he is out of town or away from the house I rush to the bathroom to take an opportunity to pick. He has never said anything to me about my skin because it is such a delicate subject but I am sure he is horrified at times about my skin when he comes home. I am not looking for sympathy or even a resolution - I simply want to vent about my frustration to others who have a similar battle. Thanks for reading.
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May 22, 2009

ha! i was there once.......ok well i still kinda am. i used to pick my face constently. i would always have red marks and hide away because that zit just wouldnt go away.. i was actually looking at my face the other day and wondered how many times i looked in the mirror just to find something wrong with my face.....of course i would find something because i would make it. i caught myself looking for something......anything to allow me to pick, but then i wiped my face and that black spot i thought was a blackhead was just a piece of dirt. ha! i almost did it. i almost picked it.....i am not a face picker like i used to be. i still have those occasional moments where i will look for something on my face, but i stop and smile then walk away. I am not out of the woods yet, i have a bad habit of picking and eating my cuticles not the nail (anymore). i am trying so much to stop and it takes alot of wilpower to change this problem. at least i can label it now dermotilimania. you are not alone and i have been battling this disease since i was 10 i am 28 now. keep up the good work your here and that is farther than i got till recently.