This is fairly uncomfortable to admit on a public forum. I am a skin picker. For hours I can be consumed by my mirror and any bump or discolored area on my body. I have been doing this for close to 8 years. I don't wear tank tops, shorts, bathing suits, anything that shows my chest or back and I choose hairstyles that will hide portions of my face. This consumes my life. I can't go to the pool with my son unless I wear my shorts and t shirt in the pool. This is impacting me being a parent.
I make small goals and meet them. Then one day it just all goes downhill and quickly. I started picking after a family member Attempted inappropriate relations. It just was my escape and I felt like I was in control removing things not meant to be on my body.
I honestly don't know how to go about change. I keep hearing its behavioral. I've seen a therapist,hypnotherapy, PTSD tx to no avail. Part of me feels like I already ruined my skin and even if I stop my skin is horrible. I don't want to say I've given up. Maybe I just haven't met the right person for me to talk to. I'm on a tight time and money budget and it's hard to work on me when I need to pay for my son.
Today was clearly a set back and bad day for me. I would love suggestions for improvement. I'm a single mom. I work three jobs. I am constantly stressed, but I haven't been able to track a specific trigger for my anxiety. I've kept journals and tallied specific feelings prior. Nothing appears consistent.
What products would clear my skin? I'll have 3 days without picking and then a large pimple and it's completely over. I just want some home that there are ways to improve my scarred skin once I do stop picking. I'm desperately searching for some kind of motivation and hope.