I'm deeply depressed and ashamed about what I've done to my skin. I think I need to break up with my boyfriend who I've been seeing for 4 months because of it. I'm not able to be the enthusiastic, self-confident, sexy girlfriend he deserves and I'm not able to take part in important activities with him like going to the beach or pool. I feel like I'm dragging him through the mud because of my self-hate. I want to be the best partner I can be. I want to overcome this self mutilation before having a relationship. It's too uncomfortable for me and I don't think its fair to my boyfriend. How do I explain to him that I'm not ready for a relationship without sounding pathetic and without talking about the picking?