We skin pick in order to escape those extremely irritating strong urges that compel us to think about a pore or pimple. By skin picking, we are simply substituting that strong compulsion for disappointment. Either way we suffer. If we abstain, that urge stays in the back of our minds. And if we pick, we obsess over the healing process.
It seems to be a lose-lose situation. How in the world do we stop that obsessive urge to pick??? Especially when we abstain and then have that tormenting thought haunt us throughout the day? This is the root problem. ( Not the actual skin picking act, but allowing the urges to guide and control our behavior. )
By abstaining from picking a pimple, I am not eliminating the urge. I am simply holding off on the urge. Meanwhile, that desire to pick can build up inside me as a feeling of immense pressure. And then the act of picking feels like taking a hit of a drug. It feels extremely relaxing and in a sick way liberating. Liberating from that extreme inner pressure.
I am wondering how many of you struggle when you resist the initial urge? How do you deal with that urge throughout the day? Does it lessen in severity after you initially hold off on the picking or does it build up and become stronger the more you resist?
I am trying to stop this behavior, but am finding that the inner feeling of pressure is what gets to me. Abstaining in the moment isnt as difficult as dealing with that "itch" in the back of my mind. Sick of it dictating for me to pick throughout the day.