Pretty girl turned into a monster


Live a Happier Life - Free from Picking

Stop picking with online therapy program, based on CBT.

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December 31, 2017

Hey! What has helped me dramatically this year was the ability to chat one on one with a similar sufferer. We met on this forum and chatted for a couple of months, discussing our thinking process around this behavior. Sending photos and discussing skin care routine, as well as sharing our ups and downs. It was an eye opening experience and I never would have thought that it could help me so much, but I think that the simple understanding that others reason like me and suffer as I do has been extremely calming. For some odd reason it had the opposite effect on her, as she thought that some of our topics of discussion were extremely triggering. What also has helped me were chemical peels. There is a psychological component to the process of shedding the outer layers of the skin, akin to a butterfly metamorphosis. Chemical peels improve tone and texture, and increase collagen production while simultaneously minimizing breakouts. My skin is doing so much better with weekly TCA peels that I administer at home. My breakouts are almost non-existent...a far cry from the past two years when I took a break from the procedure. So a combination of self care and personal support from a similar sufferer has helped me a lot. But self care is vital. Learning as much as you can about skin and how it functions is important. Learning to take care of yourself is the first step to being more delicate with how you approach your skin.
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January 02, 2018

Hi serene, Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. I am trying so hard to refrain from picking and be more gentle with my skin, but the second I have a scab something comes over me and I have this irresistible urge to pick it off so that it is flat for makeup application. I would love to have someone to talk to who actually understands what I am going through. I've tried to talk to my mom and my friends, even my boyfriend and they all tell me I am overreacting. I really don't think that is the case, I think I have a serious problem.
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January 02, 2018

What you could try is when you have the urge to pick...write down all the things why. Then write down your options of why not. What exactly are you picking initially? Have you tried hydrocolloid covers overnight?
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January 02, 2018

Hi snipzie.. I pick at anything and everything.. I am obsessed with the texture of my skin. I have tried the hydrocolloid patches but I can't wear them at work and I find my urge to pick is highest at work because I don't want anyone to notice my blemishes. I've also found that any new blemishes always appear in the morning, so I cannot use the patches then, and I tend to pick at them before leaving for work which makes them impossible to cover.
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January 03, 2018

I just need to write this because I feel like I've overcome a huge hurdle since I wrote my first post 5 days ago. Since then I have not touched the wound on my lip and it is incredible how quickly it has healed!! The texture is still uneven but it is not a crusty scab anymore. From my experience with this I think the spot will just keep drying and flaking until the texture is uniform with my skin. I did pick a little bit last night at a spot on my chin, but today I have put minimal makeup on it and used all the willpower I have to avoid looking in mirrors or touching it. I just checked and the difference from last night/this morning picking at it and trying to cover it up and it is incredible!! Only 8 hours without touching it and the swelling has gone down to almost nothing. The spot is still slightly red and not fully covered but by not looking in a mirror every 10 minutes I find myself forgetting about it! My new years resolution is to quit picking (I already broke it last night lol but I will keep trying). I feel very hopeful and confident that I can stop. I appreciate the responses to my original post. And I just had to share my small triumph of today with anyone who is willing to read it.
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January 04, 2018

There will be improvements and there will be setbacks. Don't strive for perfection, strive to misdirect the urges. I find that a hobby which allows me to be fully immersed helps to direct the energy away from the picking urges. Something which you love so much that you find the time fly by while doing it. Or something which exhausts you to the point where you have no more energy left to care about picking. Misdirect the energy.... because energy never ceases to exist, it can only change form. I view these urges as an extreme form of turbulent energy. Forcing myself to not pick or to avoid mirrors only helps to a certain extent... although I still feel the urges pressuring me inside. The best thing is to immerse yourself in activities and hobbies you love. Start obsessing about other things....this is the best tactic and it works.