Hi, I have actually never posted anything on a forum or a chat room or anything of the sort. I am 28 years old and have suffered from Dermatillomania since as long as I can remember. My main area of attack is my arms. I focus mainly on the backs of my upper arm but will make my way down to my wrists should I last in that trance-like state long enough. I have KP and will pop all of the bumps I could possibly find. I still feel shame for the way my skin looks but have in the last 2 years stopped wearing the long sleeve shirts to cover the scars and just deal with the looks or questions I get on the matter. I have to say, it's the "JUST STOP" comments that I find the most infuriating but then I remember that to those that don't have a disorder similar to this it's hard to understand.
I have noticed over the years that in my intense urge to "control" the "imperfections" on my arms I have noticed this control transfers to binge eating and the guilt I feel with that. It's almost mirrored, the feeling of zen I get from picking as eating a bag of popcorn, pizza, (why always horrible food?) as I do focusing on my arms. And when I am trying to control those urges to overeat, I will pick to distract myself. I am sure both of these stem from the same "mania" states that revert back to symptoms of bi-polar disorders but I am wondering how common this is and if there would be anyone willing to give advice on ways to branch away from both these areas.