I have self-diagnosed myself with dermatillomania recently and I couldn’t be more ashamed. I’ve only been struggling with this for a few years now but every day I want to scream and cry and punch myself all at the same time. When I stand in a mirror I try so damn hard not to get sucked into my reflection. But then I notice one infinitesimal imperfection and I lean closer and I only pull away hours later. When I’m picking it’s like I’m in some sort of trance where I understand that what I’m doing is bad and that I should stop but no matter how much I try I never stop. I’m a teenager and every morning I wake up, look in the mirror, and see my disgusting face, arms and legs. I’m terrified of going out in public and my life has barely even begun! I can’t afford a therapist and I’m too embarrassed to ask for a dermatologist so I just don’t know what to do! I haven’t told my friends, my family, anyone. They all just think I have bad skin. I need a way to stop doing this to myself because right now I’m crying while typing as every inch of my face burns from the abuse it endured and will continue to endure. Please help me if you know how.