Hi everyone. Im 18 and i have been picking my skin since forever (i think i started at about 10 years old). I only knew of dermatillomania when i googled it last week as i was feeling very depressed that my skin looks so bad and started hating myself for that. I thought i was the only one with this kind of obsession and i haven’t gotten any support from anyone so i decided to write on this forum.
As some of you have experienced, i have a strong urge to pick my skin over and over again in my legs, arms, chest and pubic area. I feel ashamed of myself and every year in the summer i hesitate to wear clothes that expose my skin, i would never have sex with the lights on and i skip social activities very often.
I have damaged my skin so badly over the years that even my hairs can’t penetrate the skin to grow up, so i start scarring my skin again to get them out... i don’t think that my skin will ever recover no matter how hard i try to soften my picking habits.
I have tried many remedies: using oil to make my skin more slippery to not be able to pick it, wearing gloves, cutting my nails very short, applying crazy amounts of sudo cream so i can’t see what’s under there, watching blackhead popping videos on youtube to take off the urge, sitting for hours in the sun to fade the scars away etc. Some of these methods really worked at the time but no matter what i always start again, especially on stressful times. I really feel sorry for myself for doing this but i can’t seem to beat the urge. I even thought of hurting myself because i couldn’t stand in front of a mirror.
I really wish i could show you guys here pics of my skin. Anyways, i really needed to share my story with people who would understand me. Love and support for all of you❤️