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I haven't been active on here for a bit, and since it seems like everything else I'm doing is failing, I'll try here. I recently got the Habit Aware bracelet that is made specifically for skin-pickers and hair-pullers (and maybe even nose-pickers or thumb-suckers, but I digress). It is pretty neat- all you do is link it to your phone, train it by doing the behavior for 30 seconds, and then you're all set. It buzzes whenever you repeat the behavior and there's a button on the side where you can log in picking episodes. I also just got on a new medication. It's meant for opioid addicts or alcoholics, but there has been some evidence of helping out with picking urges since this is basically and addiction. I also was in a good spot to take a break with my therapist while she went on maternity leave just to see how I would function by myself. I was super excited for all three- I thought I was finally going to turn the corner. But I haven't. And now I doubt I ever will. Regardless of the bracelet buzzing, I still pick. It could be buzzing on and off for thirty minutes and I still can't use that as a motive to lower my hand. Now when I pick, I'm not as guilty afterwards for some reason, which may be a good and bad thing. It's good because I'm not such a Debbie Downer all the damn time, but bad because now I don't recognize the severity of me giving in to the urges and treating it as something "normal" that's bound to happen. I just don't care at all sometimes, and that worries and saddens me. I just don't know what to do. I cannot keep myself accountable- I keep feeling like I've already done the best I can, so there is no point in giving a little more. Does anyone have any advice for how to regain motivation or is anyone else going through the same thing now? I would love to hear from someone other than my own, twisted little mind. Thanks.