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Hi everybody, I'm an old user and been a member of the site for over a year. i successfully quit picking on my own about 3 months ago.I am not advocating against going to see a therapist; but in my case i felt that the therapist was patronizing me, since i knew more about the dynamics of my condition then he did. So i left therapy after one session and stopped picking shortly thereafter. It was a difficult and cathartic experience because i also decided i was going to change other things in my life as well. I broke up with my girlfriend (because i felt our relationship was destructive and it led me to "play my tape recorder" in my head way too much.) I also began focusing more on my studies and my GPA shot up from 4.1 to 4.45. My primary coping strategy was to keep busy. However i felt that the stress from keeping busy was going to kill me. I have since found a new girl and my parents really like her. They didn't like the old girlfriend too much so this was a big plus to my confidence and i felt that having my parents approval was key to stop picking. So we come to the end of the school year and my responsibilities decrease dramatically. All of a sudden i find myself with very little to do. I want to work as a volunteer for the EMS but i need to wait a couple weeks to get re-certified so as of now i am quite bored.And boredom leads to daydreaming or "tape recorder" which leads to picking. So to keep busy i have been working out more and going out more, but I am running out of money so i cant keep blowing it on keeping busy. So about a week ago i began to pick again. This relapse was bittersweet. It showed that a person cannot be cured from this disease, only cope, but it also showed that coping is very possible. Even now, i honestly pick maybe about one fifth as much as i did before, my arms and back and legs and face are clear, i only have a few scabs on my shoulders so even though i relapsed, there was significant improvement overall.