First time at SkinPick

Hi everyone, I will be honest, I am embaressed. Until today, I thought I was the only one in the world who does what I do. I am ashamed and I want to stop. I will not let anyone see me until my skin is covered with makeup or until most of the redness is gone. I don't know why I cannot stop. I have tried to quit it, but the most I have gone is two days without touching my face period except to wash it. Those two days were hard! I compulsively pick at my face and my scalp. I used to on my chest and back up until a few years ago. Now I hardly touch those areas simply because the skin is clear and looks great. I am married, two children. Husband is deployed and I notice that I pick, pick, pick all day everyday when he is gone. This deployment and last. I just cannot stop. My husband does not even know of my problem. I hide it well when he is around. And i don't want to be like this anymore. I feel so ugly. My face will stay red and bumpy and break out from the picking. My scalp flakes from the scratching I do all the time. I am emaressed, I don't feel good about myself when I do this. I am so happy to have found others that share my pain. I am here for support and to find a way to stop. To be held accountable shall you say. I have been doing this ever since I can remember. Does anyone have words of encouragement for me? Thank you so much. This is the first time in my life I have admitted to my problem that I never new existed until I typed "skin picking" in the search engine.