I am an 18 year old female. I have been picking for as long as I can remember. What usually provokes me is mosquitoe bites because I scratch them until they turn into scabs and then I pick the scabs. Then when a new scab forms I pick it again. It's just a cycle and each time the scab gets bigger. People often ask "What happened?" like it was one event that caused this big scab but I always end up lying and saying "Oh, I don't remember." or "Oh, nothing." I'm not about to explain to them that I just pick at myself constantly.
Do you find yourself lying for the sake of your scabs?
Do you ever start picking from a mosquitoe bite?
I would love to stop because it leaves my skin so horribly unattractive in areas but I always get this rush out of doing it. I never really thought it was psychological until I found this site and read up on the causes of it and it definitely fits what I'm going through. Every time I pick it feels like the world momentarily stops and all I have to think about and focus on is getting the scab off and once it's gone it's an amazing feeling. I tell myself all the time that I'm going to stop, but the next second I find my hand picking at another scab. I definitely worry a lot and have high anxiety. I'm most certain that this is the cause of my picking.
Can anyone relate to any this?