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December 11, 2009

I don't think I can help you, but I can relate to you. For me, its not my hands its my ankles. I'm constantly scratching and picking them throughout the day while I sit. It looks like I have the measels from the knees down and has for a very long time. I chew my scabs too and its fucking disgusting, I know. I always do it when I'm alone but the scars are still extremely embarassing. Its awful to have to carry bandaids in my wallet for when I pick. I've just recently become aware of this site and the dissorder too. Its nice to know its a real dissorder but quite daunting too. I don't know what the root of my picking is and finding out seems impossible.
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December 11, 2009

I don't think I can help you, but I can relate to you. For me, its not my hands its my ankles. I'm constantly scratching and picking them throughout the day while I sit. It looks like I have the measels from the knees down and has for a very long time. I chew my scabs too and its fucking disgusting, I know. I always do it when I'm alone but the scars are still extremely embarassing. Its awful to have to carry bandaids in my wallet for when I pick. I've just recently become aware of this site and the dissorder too. Its nice to know its a real dissorder but quite daunting too. I don't know what the root of my picking is and finding out seems impossible.
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December 11, 2009

I know I feel the same way I mean I am so embarrased because it's so gross but it's out of my control and I don't know why I started or how to stop. I had a very happy childhood, my parents are still together In fact no one in my family is divorced. I still have all of my family I haven't lost anyone close to me. There was no abuse no drugs, I haven't had many traumatic experiences, you know everyone has a story or two but nothing that I could pin point and say oh yeah that must be it. Is this disorder always caused by some underlying psychological problem and I just haven't figured it out or am I the odd ball? Or maybe I have some embalance of chemicals or hormones or something, I wish this was something more easily answered.
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December 11, 2009

I don't think you have to be traumatized to be a compulsive skin picker. I was reading that all animals get a hormone release from grooming behavior, and I think skin pickers are addicted to it. People with prior trauma or high anxiety might be more likely to use it as a way to self-soothe, but I think anyone could develop the addiction. That's my take on it, anyway.
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December 12, 2009

Yeah you know that makes some sense because before the guilt sets in I feel it is self soothing when I am stressed and stimulating when I'm bored. It's sad to think that my behavior is so animalistic. I had a really rough day today, I got some bad news and my fingers are the ones that suffer the most. I wish I would be addicted to a different kind of grooming ritual, like polishing my finger nails, what bad could come of that? Maybe that would at least keep my hands busy for a while.