this is my fisrt post. i wanted to write about my compulsion to pick others. i became intimate with a guy who had acne. i can't not see past it because every bump is like a hurdle that i have to perfect. so i scrubbed, heated, and picked. for me its compulsive and i feel that i really put him off. its hard for me to stop with someone i have feelings for because in a way i am doing it out of affection. the permission to touch intimately at least in my brain also gives me permission to groom.
does anyone else have this problem? what can i do about it?
i know what it stems from. childhood and parents of course. i am almost 30 and i am not past this.