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Hi im new here... Im 27yrs old and have been pickung since I was a little girl. My mom used to cover for me and tell people it was mosiquito bites ( i started with my legs) and over the past 6yrs... ive gone to my forehead, back, arms and tush..... its disgusting. Im a decent looking girl and my skin makes me feel hideous!!! I recently got married, and anytime my husband says " why dont you go to a doctor" or " stop that" "or "what are u doing to yourself" i get sooooo offended and tend to flip out on him, because I dont know why I do it!!! In the car is def my biggest picking place. Of course im in sales and drive for a living so i limit my picking to under my black clothes ( as to not let blood be shown) and then on my way home to my face and any other exposed part of my body. I have such a system and am so sneaky its unbelievable!!! To the point that we have brown sheets on our bed, so when im lying down watching tv in bed and pick he doesnt see or know, My other times are before I get in the shower, on the toilet, and under extreme stress. When im really stressed out i'll pick in front of anyone and not care. I currently take prescription meds for anxiety but doesn help my picking. it has taken control over me!!! Im at the point where I want to be freed from this hell, but now when i try and control myself my bumps start to itch!!! As though my mind is sending a trigger to them to itch so i will pick at them and not neglect them!!! I feel like i have no control!!! They physically hurt me..... when i sit.... or lay or get out the shower!!1 Why would someone do something like this to themsleves??? I recently started using witch hazel morning and night to heal what i did to myself as well as over the counter cortizone.... i feel like once they are gone ill stop.., but truth is i just look for new ones!!! This is my first time truely speaking about my condition ever.... and its reassuring im not alone and by disappointing that there is not much science to back it up etc.... Im considered getting hypnotised..... anyone ever try that?? I want to be free!