Hi all. 2 days ago, after years of scratching and picking I came to a revelation - DUH. My skin picking is an addiction. It has all the features of addiction. It soothes me. I don't have the power to stop with enough consistency to allow my skin to heal. I can engage in skin picking sessions that make me late for work or keep me from doiing other constructive things. I've seen the brief questionaire that is sometimes used to help people see whether or not they are alcoholics and my answers if I substitute skin picking for drinking. I've even been late to work because I was engaged in picking.
Right now, I got on this forum b/c I have an incredible urge to pick. I'm hoping that writing this and seeing what others have posted will get me through the next few minutes or hours or however long it takes for me to get through this current immediate desie to scratch and pick. I've gone 1 day with almost no picking. No bleeding at all - I did pick off 2 minor scabs before I realized I was doing it. But comparing my picking yesterday to the day before, it is a miracle. Problem right now is that my body is itching in many different spots. Thus my sitting down and journaling in the hopes that it breaks the urge. I'll search prior posts to see if there is anybody else who is 12 stepping as well.
We admitted we were powerless over picking and our had become unmanageable.
So thanks to all you compulsive skin pickers out there. I cannot do this alone.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Yours in recovery, Gorillamom