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I am new here, based in the UK and feel that this would be a good place to start so any reply or comment would be appreciated. People often say that the road to recovery involves admitting you have a problem; I never knew I did until I found similar stories to mine. I obviously do have a problem as I am purposely attacking my face and never learning from it. As I write this, I have just had a major squeezing/picking 'session' which I thought was necessary as I always do but afterwards regret like hell. Its going to be a week before I venture out as my face is now covered with new sores and scabs. The worse thing is my face had just recovered from my 'last time' which took a week to get over and I swore I would never do again. I actually can't believe it. The marks/scars are still fresh from the last time My acne recovered after I went on accutane but in my head I still have 'bad' skin and go at it like hell frequently. It doesn't help that I am a perfectionist and a control freak. I need to stop as this has ruined holidays, nights out, general life, moods, going to the gym, even university days. I have been doing this for years but only recently recognised it as a problem because the blemishes which I see are not even noticeable, but the sores and scars I make of them are. I think that I'd rather have a scab and be in control of my skin but in reality IT CONTROLS ME. It will stop me going about general life for another week so of course it does. Thankfully I have a supportive boyfriend whom Ive only recently confided in after 7 years; I wish Id told him sooner then I could have begun my road to recovery sooner. Its embarssing though because I havnt got acne anymore, I DO THIS TO MYSELF. Does anyone else have similar experiences/advice? I was thinking of taking a photo of what Ive just done to myself and when it clears and i get tempted to start all over, it will stop me?