I realized my biggest issue in life is self love. I don’t love myself enough. In fact I practically hate myself. I think (among other things) picking at my face is mainly my form of self punishment for not loving myself. I’m mad at myself for all my flaws: being moody, ugly, a procrastinator, emotional, stupid, shy, etc. But my flaws are only illusions that I put out for myself. Some of my “flaws” can actually be beautiful traits if I just tell myself that they are.
Being moody is mostly inevitable, most women are. I just have to accept that part of me and control it when I’m around others.
Being ugly is a lie and I know it. I’m really blessed when it comes to my appearance. I just tell myself that I’m ugly as a block from something (I still don’t know what I am trying to block). And I pick at my face to make myself look uglier then I really am.
Being a procrastinator is only partially true. I procrastinate in things that take creativity and thinking such as my art because I want it to be perfect. Mostly I start project right away and take forever to finish them. This causes me great stress. I need to learn and practice to work consistently.
Being emotional is not a negative aspect, I should be glad I express my emotions freely instead of bottling them up and letting them explode.
Being stupid is a lie as well; I have excellent grades in school and make wise life decisions.
Being shy is mainly because of my lack of confidence. If I became more self loving I would gain confidence and become more outgoing.
I need to start being positive about myself. I need to love myself. My love for myself is more important then the love I receive from others. If I love myself others will see that and want to love me too. Lets all practice self love together. Lets focus on are beautiful gifts, not our flaws. Start by writing a list of all the things you love about yourself, no lying. You should have at least ten things. Feel free to post your lists.