hi I'm sydney and I am a skin picker

Hi, i'm new to the site but have known about this site for months. I am 15 years old and have been picking for atleast 5 to 6 years. I started picking when I had seen my sister do it. She had mild acne and over the years started to not pick a lot. I still pick and pick alot. I have scars all down my arms on my face and I pick my lips(now i do because accutane made my lips dry and chapped). I had met one person in my life that did the same thing but she moved and i had seen her myspace and her face was clear and she had stopped piccking. I want to stop but I cant. I somtimes wear short sleeved shirts and I get looked at or I am paranoid that someone is looking at me. I have been humiliated about my face by older people or elders who think they can say anything and think they are helping you. I don't wear swim suits without t-shirts. I don't wear dresses without shaws or sweaters. I hardly wear makeup on my face. I havent found one that blends in with my skin and hides my scars. I am using vitamin E oil for my arms but I really don't see that much of a change. I need and want help but i know my parents won't send me to a therapist for it. I think this site could help me some and probably be my therapy because I could vent and have help from fellow skinpickers. what do some of you use to clear spots?