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meg1448 , 08 Dec 2010

New here and need some comfort

Hi everyone. I've finally broken down and decided I need to speak with others who are suffering like I am. I started picking at various places on my body when I was around 12. I pulled off my toenails and went after my face and chest. I have other mental disorders that exacerbate the picking (including OCD). Over the last year or so, my attentions have shifted severely to my legs. They are red and scarred all over. I even had a bacterial infection. I've started going to a therapist and discovered that basically, because I've had mental and physical issues for most of my life, I never really developed a non-destructive way to self-sooth. I so desperately want to stop doing this. Not necessarily for vanity's sake (though I am a model and it certainly hinders my progress there) but because I find it so mentally distressing. I decided to join today because I just picked for 40 minutes and I feel awful. I just want to forget my legs even exist. I know relapse is a part of recovery but it's really difficult to see it that way when you're in the middle of it. Just knowing that there are others out there suffering like I am is a bizarre comfort. If you'd like to share your experiences with relapse, please do. I need a little encouragement.
6 Answers
michaintoronto
December 08, 2010
Hugs to you and I assure you everyone has relapses until they get the emotional issues resolved that triggered the problem in the first place. We are all in the same place!
JJ
December 09, 2010

In reply to by michaintoronto

Thank you for the posts, I am so relieved to have found other people who are going through this, as I've been picking for over 50 years, and now find comfort in knowing I'm not the only person going through this.
JJ
December 09, 2010

In reply to by michaintoronto

Thank you for the posts, I am so relieved to have found other people who are going through this, as I've been picking for over 50 years, and now find comfort in knowing I'm not the only person going through this.
Evey
December 08, 2010
Hi Meg, I think u made a great start by going to a therapist and getting to the root of the problem. I started picking when i was about 12 as well and I think it may have started as I way to relieve stress and help me when I was upset, but now it's just a complete compulsion that happens wether I'm happy, sad, sick, healthy, bored etc. There's no reason to it...I've just been doing it so long it's hard to break th habit of almost a life time. The cycles of picking, then the disgust and shame I feel afterwards are the worst part. When I wake up int eh morning sometimes it takes a minute to remember the damage I've done the night before, then I look in the mirror and feel like a monster, before using a million products on my face to cover what I've done. i just hate it so much. Tonight I'm determined to not pick at all, through a combination of filing my nails right down and wearing gloves to bed. 1 night without any picking will be an achievement in itself. I just find this forum such a relief as I never talk to anyone about this and i know whatever I post you all understand.
Evey
December 08, 2010

In reply to by Evey

I think whatever we achieve, be it a week or a day or a month without picking is a fantastic achievement so keep it up and don't let one bad day get you down. Next time u get the urge come on here and read some posts and vent : )
meg1448
December 08, 2010

In reply to by Evey

I completely understand and I wish you the best of luck with not picking today! Thank you all for your responses. They've helped a great deal. *hugs* I'm very glad I found this forum.

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