Just told my boyfriend about my problem.

Hey everyone, new to this site but I have been doing a lot of reading and research on the subject. I can't believe I'm not the only one who does this. I have had this problem since the beginning of college. It gets really bad when I am depressed, anxious, and stressed. I have pretty mild acne (was terrible in high school!) and strive to look perfect now, probably because I feel so imperfect on the inside. I used to pick and pop at my skin, just to get rid of a few blemishes but then I would just go crazy and end up with open wounds and scabs all over my face. Its like I am trying to look perfect, but then ending up looking disgusting. I would call off of work and not go anywhere because I couldn't stand to look like that in public. I know this will always be the outcome, but I can't let the blemish just sit there! Since living with my boyfriend I have stopped considerably, I only would pop what was needed on my face and pick at my boobs, until yesterday. I was so depressed and felt like I had some work to do on my face, so I did. I ended up with red welts all over and open sores. My boyfriend came home late and we slept, but in the morning i knew I had to tell him what I did. I explained Dermatillomania to him and showed him my face and told him what a problem this is for me. He was pretty shocked and concerned, but told me it was okay. I am still very depressed about this and have to hide inside until the scabs go away. I feel trapped and hate myself, but at least I know I'm not alone. After telling my boyfriend I feel like I don't have to hide the scabs, but it is a big motivation for me to never do it again.