I Think the Skin Picking is Getting Worse?

I really understand how you feel. Ive been fighting this for so long. I damaged my face very badly almost everyday for a year. I havent done it for about 3 weeks now. Ive been telling myself that I have gone over my face and squeezed my pores to death so so so many times and it was getting so obsessive and unreasonable. I sed to myself, look you cant do this to your skin all your life. So I decided, after I squeezed every pore for the last time-right I cant try and control skin anymore, im going to look at face as a whole, and unless there is something obvious on my skin im not going to worry about it. When you look too close thats a dangerous place to be, it shows us an unrealistic view of our skin, up close, every1s skin looks worse. I make sure I have a good diet, water. I take care of skin-using cucumber,natural remedies,natural clensers. So I am doing everything I can to prevent spots/blackheads and to have healthy skin. If I stil get some, wel no skin is perfect. For me, another motivation is to just get to the stage of not having to hide my face anymore! I feel much more free as I can look people in the eye now. I was targeting the smallest of pores and looking almost through layers to find impurities, now I only quickly glimpse at my face, I never stand close, but from a distance other people would look normally look at you from and I look right on the top surface of skin and if I cant see anything,im fine. I dont prod or stretch my skin to find anything either. I have scars still and they are taking time to fade-it worrys me. I wish you all the best, i am here to support you, dont punish yourself for any slip ups you make, just start again, take long walks,fresh air,absorb yourself in things, concentrate on ur hair, clothes, jewlerry etc. So u can stil good about yourself. And remember, ur personality is what makes u attractive. People dont really pay much notice to skin. Wel maybe nice lipstick and bag. Hehe. Hugs. X