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March 04, 2011

Ok, I am with you. Decided this afternoon that this has to stop. Forever. I have tried SO many times before. Even managed 10 days once. And then rewarded myself by picking! I have been trying to stop for the last few days, and then managed to destroy my face about an hour ago without even really realising it. It is really upsetting my boyfriend, and I just can't seem to stop. I just make excuses as to why I've done it yet again. I came across this site after googling how to stop skin picking. Hoping to god that with a bit of support, and actually forcing myself to write this and actually admit how bad this problem is, I'll be able to find the strength to kick this. So I am in. Going to go home and get rid of all the mirrors I can, except the ones I need for getting dressed, makeup etc. But they're in really bad lighting so don't pose a danger. Updates everyday yeah? Here goes day 1. Good luck. We've got to be strong enough to do this.
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March 04, 2011

Exactly what ive been thinking. Its stopping now! Good luck. Lets be free for the summer!
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March 04, 2011

hey guys! i'm in - and looking forward to replying and reading this thread every day for motivation! i've spent so many years drowning under the weight of my picking...i think i'm ready now to fight back (and kick ass too) - thanks to everyone on this forum for making me realize i'm not alone :)
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March 06, 2011

how's it going lexyw? OK I hope!
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March 05, 2011

Day 1 - It's just turned midnight and the good news is I haven't picked since I decided to stop at about 2 this afternoon!! Am also done with the bedtime routine and in bed ready to sleep so hopefully will start day 2 without any disasters. I am so pleased you've all decided to join me in trying to stop - together I know we can do this. I reckon we should come up with some creative distractions and rewards for ourselves along the way. Making it to Day four will be a big day for me because I've never made it that far before - will have to think of a good treat for then! Today was exciting for another reason too, because I told my mum about my picking. She's visiting at the moment and I just decided to tell her - she sort of already knew because she's seen me do it, but didn't understand until now that it's so difficult to stop and all the ways it affects my life! She's also going to try to arrange for me to see a cbt therapist over easter which would be great, but that's three whole weeks away and I'd really like to spend those weeks pick free which I can't do without you all so keep me updated on how you're all doing!! I have covered my bedroom mirror and I think you should all do the same. Also have been wearing an elastic band around my wrist to fiddle with which is quite good. And if I accidentally forget I'm not supposed to be touching my skin EVER AT ALL apart from to put makeup on, and I start feeling around for a place to pick, I tap myself three times which is actually really helpful. I think even as I start feeling my skin I start going into that sort of trance-like state and tapping my skin snaps me out of it quickly. Then I fiddle with the elastic band until the urge to pick goes away - which means I am fiddling with it almost all day long but I suppose in time the urge will go away! Hope these tips help you. Let me know if you find anything which works for you! Good luck everyone!!
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March 05, 2011

I'm on day 2 for not picking at my legs, but I'm gonna make this day 1 for not picking at anything else! I've been picking since I was about 6 years old (21 now), started with my feet, moved to my legs and arms, to fingers, and then my scalp. I've managed to stop picking at my feet and at my arms for a few years now. I still pick my fingers, legs and scalp. This is gonna be tough, but I'm gonna do it! Starting now, no more excuses, no more picking, no more scars external, or internal. Let's kick this guys! I'm in!
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March 05, 2011

it's the middle of the night an I can't sleep for some reason - it's too hot or somthing. Anyway I have the strongest urge to pick so I just thought I'd post on here again. I have been scratching a bit but not really done damage - normally this would have turned into proper picking a while ago so I am trying to stay positive! Usually when I can't sleep I just pick for an hour or two until I'm tired but I am NOT going to do that now, no way jose! Am annoyed with myself for scratching but since it's the first day I'll let myself off this time and make sure it doesn't turn into something more serious. I might put some gloves on...... right they are on! It's difficult to type. I think t is now safe again to try to sleep. Goodnight!
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March 05, 2011

OK, so I also made it through day 1. Also gave nearly all my mirrors to my boyfriend to hide. The ones I have left aren't ones I usually use for picking so the habit to sit in front of them and pick for hours hasn't been established, so hopefully will be easier to resist. It was still hard as I was taking my makeoff last night though. Especially as I can see loads of bumbs that I just want to fix! Arrgh. I read somewhere that someone had made a ball out of rubber bands to have something to fiddle with, so I made one as well. Found it actually really helps just to have something else to do with my hands. Realised that I tend to pick at my face a lot when I'm not thinking bout it, like when I sit and watch tv. Anyway, I woke up this morning with a huge spot with a whitehead. Since I can't stand walking round with them on my face, I decided to fix it, but I was really strict about not carrying on and touching anywhere else on my face (also really hard!) and I used a tissue so that it doesn't get infected or anything, coz that always makes me want to pick more. So that was day one. Onto day two. Really don't want to still be doing this in 10 years time. I'm only 25, and if I don't quit now I'm going to destroy my complexion forever. Really need to fix this, so I'm going to keep updating every day. Even though its embarrasing having to talk bout it, even anonymously online!! But congratulations to everyone who made it through day 1. 'Nomorepicking' you're going to make it to three weeks. Just remember I'm going through this too, and I know how hard it is. You're doing really well. :)
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March 06, 2011

I felt the same way about signing up for this and posting but it has really helped me on my journey to day 10 and I enjoy reading everyone elses stories/struggles to remind me others are with me as well. Good luck you can do it!
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March 05, 2011

Ugh. Bad moment. Just started picking at a scab. Managed to stop and put anit-septic on it, but feeling frustated at myself. Even as I type this I am justifying it to myself that its infected, and it will heal quicker if I let the infection out. Stupid. Its only a minor set back and at least I haven't touched the rest of my face, but i'm annoyed that I let the justifications creep back in for a bit, becuase that's how I start. Ah well. *Deep breath* Keep going.
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March 06, 2011

I always start justifying. Only I tell myself - 'that wasn't picking that was itching' or 'that doesn't really count'. I obsess a lot about what counts as picking, where I last picked, etc and I've noticed over the time I have been trying to stop picking I seem to think about picking a lot more. Like, all the time! Arggg
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March 06, 2011

PS you can do it!!! Well done for stopping yourself quickly, I know how hard that is :) don't give in.
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March 06, 2011

Day 2 - oops. Not so good today. Not awful, but bad enough that I think I might have to start back to day one again :( have been constantly scratching all day - only lightly but enough that I slowly got more and more agitated until I spent 20 mins picking just now in my bathroom mirror... am pretty annoyed with myself. I think I get complacent too easily. I manage one day and think, yeah this is eaaasy and then it all goes wrong :( Will be more vigilant tomorrow! I'm just going to wear gloves I don't even care if I look stupid. So anyway it's back to day one - I wouldn't have started over if it had just been a small slip up but I was picking in the mirror for long enough that I knew what I was doing and I just thought 'i don't care' and didn't even try to stop myself. I;m glad it wasn't for too long though! How is everyone else doing? Better than me I hope. I don;t know about you but I often feel that once I've picked just a tiny tiny spot I might as well give up completely - that's sort of what happened today. But we mustn't think like that! Llama06 I know how frustrating it is to pick at one tiny scab like that but try to think about all the times you didn't pick today and keep positive, otherwise you'll do what I just did and give in completely! I am taking it one day at a time - am not thinking ahead any further than just tomorrow. If I can just make it through tomorrow I'll be so happy! Good luck everybody and well done to anybody who managed a day pick free - you are an inspiration to s all!
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March 06, 2011

Oh, and everyone remember: IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED, TRY, TRY, TRY AGAIN. Even though it is really hard! One day we'll do it!
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March 06, 2011

'nomore' bad luck. Stay positive and think how much better it is that you stopped after 20mins! That's progress in itself. Having said that, I said I was going to do this with you and, if you're anything like me, starting over when the rest of us are on day three (or whatever it is now) will allow you to tell yourself you failed, and therefore give up! SO: If you're back to day 1, so am I. That way you still have the support to hopefully give you strength when you feel like giving up. Think maybe you should cover your bathroom mirror too? And keep wearing the gloves! I think the first week will be the hardest. I have also found that deciding to stop picking is making me think about it ALL the time. Think we've just got to break the initial habit. Maybe we're thinking too long term at the moment. Maybe take it one day at a time. Possibly even hours! Would it help if you drew up a chart, and got to cross off a box for every hour you didn't pick? You'd even get to cross off a whole chunk of them for when you were asleep? Might make you feel like you were achieving something, and give you the motivation to hold off picking for one more hour, so you get to cross off your box. Might not work for you, but that sort of thing helps me sometimes. Good luck, and stay positive. Here goes day 1! :)
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March 07, 2011

That is so good of you thank you!!! And the good news is I made it all the way through today hurray!!!!! One whole day :) I think I will make a chart like you said - crossing off the hours will be fun! Plus I think you are right about thinking short term. I can't cover the bathroom mirror because I live with housemates but what I did this evening was leave the door open and keep the bathroom lights off! Which worked :) Thank you again so much for starting back at day one with me I feel even more motivated now!
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March 07, 2011

DAY 1 - Hurray! I made it through the day and weirdly didn't feel too much of an urge to pick! How is everyone else doing? If I make it to the end of tomorrow I am going to paint my nails as a treat :)
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March 07, 2011

Well done. :) I'm sure the second day will be just as succesful. I'm feeling positive about stopping this time. Before, I've always set myself goals like 1 week or 10 days, and then once I've made it, I lack the conviction to keep going and 'reward' myself by picking again! But this time, every time I go to the mirror, and start thinking about how it's ok to just pick one, I tell myself that I have STOPPED now. I don't do that anymore. It's an absolute no. That's not to say its easy! I've nearly done it so many times, and I still find myself continuously checking my skin in the mirror. But i'm managing not to pick. Just taking it one day at a time. It's helping to write on here as well. It makes stopping seem more real, and something I have to stick to. Is there anyone else following this thread and stopping? Think it helps to have support from people experiencing the same thing.
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March 07, 2011

Hey "llama"- I am! And I'm on day 11! Following this is literally the one thing that has made this time different and more successful than any other. I relate to everything you just wrote! I found that finding myself in the mirror is my big problem even though I'm not picking, I'm still subconsciously looking for something pick and one day I could very well meet my downfall but I am conditioning myself to, if I end up in the mirror, to apply medication right away so help instead of hurt. working well so far.
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March 08, 2011

Day 11! Wow, that's amazing. Think the most I ever managed was 10 days. You give me hope. :) Finding this forum has been a real help. It makes stopping this time seem much more real. Good luck!
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March 08, 2011

DAY 2 - another day done :) I'm so happy with myself right now!! If I make it through tomorrow I will have beaten my record and I'll feel like I might actually be stopping for good this time!
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March 08, 2011

That's amazing! Well done. :) Yesterday was hard for me. Got really stressed out about some things going on in my life, and realised just how much I use picking as a release. Couldn't believe how wound up I was! And then I started crying because I realised that I really wanted to pick, but I couldn't EVER AGAIN. Can't believe how messed up my head is that I end up crying because I can no longer destroy my face. I mean seriously? That's not right! Anyway, I didn't pick. So yay! But it is really tough. I've got a few bumps under my skin that I can feel that I'm dying to have a go at, but i'm hoping they will go away over the next few days which will make it easier. Come on day three!!!! 'nomore' just think of what an amazing achievement it is that you have done two whole days pick free, and how awesome it will feel to break your previous record. Prove to yourself that you ARE that strong. I'm with you all the way.
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March 09, 2011

I get really upset when I think about not picking ever again too!! Isn't that stupid? But it is a really scary thought because it's such a comforting thing to do.I can't believe I didn't make it past day three again :( You are doing so so well!!! Don't feel like you have to start over all over again with me - your progress is encouraging me so keep going! I will try to focus on the fact that I managed two days so I should be able to manage two again, and then I'll tackle day three when I get to it. Good luck and keep going and thank you for your support!
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March 09, 2011

Day 3 - :( I never make it past day three! Ever. Grrrr can't believe it. Just spent three whole hours straight picking. Horrific. I even got complimented on my skin today for the first time in ages and now I've gone and ruined it all. Picked mostly on my face - it's a mess :( :( I just enjoy picking so much! And when I don't pick I feel like I really have to. I feel miserable. But I'm not giving up. Though right now I don't feel like there is any point in trying since I am clearly incapable of stopping. But I am starting again tomorrrow - well, today because it is now 3am but when I wake up in the morning It will be the first morning of lent which I had forgotten about. So I will try to give up picking for lent. 40 days. One day at a time... I don't think I can do it. But I'll try all the same. Feel like I've let everyone down :( back to square one...
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March 09, 2011

i'm giving it up for lent too! I just finished 12 days and will continue on for 40. Good luck, i'm here for support/motivation.
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March 09, 2011

That's amazing. 12 days is incredible! :) You give me hope. I'm sure you will make the 40 days. Thanks for the support.
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March 10, 2011

Good luck! Well done for making 12 whole days! Post on here when you can - I'd love to hear about how you are doing :)
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March 10, 2011

i'm starting day 14 now :) its amazing and i hsould really give myself more credit but lately i have been obsessing over ok my skin is clear so lets keep it that way and heal the scars adn as a result i'm using too much mix of products that are irritating my skin. so i'm currently frustrated but things can only get better because i really can't see myself caving on picking this time. no reason to.
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March 09, 2011

It's ok. :) I think you're doing really well and I know how easy it is to slip. The fact that you did two whole days is amazing. Just think how long its been since you achieved that! So focus on the fact that you KNOW you can do two days, so think about beating that three day record. Anyway, I'm finding it pretty tough myself. Felt really upbeat about stopping the first few days. Now the whole thing just seems to be stressing me out and upsetting me. Seem to be much more focused on how stupid I am for doing this rubbish thing in the first place than what i'm achieving by stopping. Hmmmph. Maybe I'm just having a bad day. Haven't really picked, but my strict rules are slipping too. I picked a whitehead yesterday and today I picked off a scab, in the mirror, and started to squeeze it. I did stop, but it's a slippery slope and the fact that i'm starting to think it's ok to do that is not a good sign. *sigh*. It just seems exhausting trying to fight this. Not sure I have the energy. :( 'no more' please please please keep updating here. Really want you to make that three day record. It just seems really important that you achieve it. Think if you managed that you would have so much more confidence in your ability to stop. You don't really seem to believe you can at the moment, but I think you're wrong. The fact that you are trying so hard, and that you managed two whole days is massively positive. Would love to see you make three days!! :)
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March 10, 2011

Don't worry I will definitely keep posting through the whole thing because i'm finding it really helpful! It's good to have somewhere I can let someone know what's going on. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this - I'm sure even the people I've told don't really want to hear an update about how I'm doing every day! So thanks for listening :) I think you are right about making it past day three - if I do that I will really feel like I have made a breakthrough. How are you doing today? Still feeling down? You mustn't blame yourself for picking! You didn't ask for this but YOU are the one who has decided to put an end to it - be proud of that. How many days have you actually managed so far? Think about that when you feel bad but also think about all the days ahead of you - you can choose to spend those days picking or free of picking, and you are choosing to be free! We can't change all the time we spent picking in the past but we can change the course of our future. We can do this together. I know how exhausting it is! It's horrible but I am hoping that after long enough it will get easier to fight. For the moment we mustn't let our guard down - that is what I do on day three every time. Keep being strict with yourself! I got a bit upset today because I had a shower in the dark and I'm keeping all the lights dim, and I just felt really stupid and angry that I had to do that. But then I thought it's better to do that than to pick! And one day I will be able to uncover my mirrors and turn the lights on. We can have less rules and be less strict once we've made it far enough, but for the moment don't let your guard down. Well done for stopping yourself once you had started to pick - that is really really difficult so it's more of an acheivement than a failure. Hope you have managed to keep your hands away today. Good luck for tomorrow! I am already making plans for day three including painting my nails and going to the gym which I rarely do! I have actually been carrying nail varnish around in my bag so that if I feel like I reeeeeally have to pick I can paint them straight away! Haven't had to do that yet. Here's to day 2!!
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March 09, 2011

i literally did a number on my face last night. i'm 24 with a career and an amazing boyfriend. wtf is wrong with me? this needs to stop. giving it up for lent. for good. please help support by following my blog: anggoespublic.tumblr.com
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March 10, 2011

LENT DAY 1 - hurray! So far so good. :)
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March 10, 2011

i'm giving it up for lent too! but, i'm not verbalizing it yet cuz i'm really nervous. i had 8 days a few days ago and crashed and burned. but i'm glad i'm not the only one going after this humongous goal!! lent day one, check!
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March 11, 2011

LENT DAY 2 - good and bad today - good because I have not picked a lot but bad because I did pick a bit.... I always start by scratching the back of my neck because it is an easy place to reach in the day time. So I scratched that and then my face had a few spots because it always gets worse this time of the month and so I picked a few of those and some spots on my chin.... it's really annoying but I didn't pick more than 5 mins so I am allowing myself this one slip up because I don't want to give up on lent. If it happens again I might have to start over again. I have gotten better at telling myself I don't need to check my skin because if there is anything there I won't be able to pick anyway, but having spots on my face is just too much! I hate the idea of walking around like that even though I know it isn't really that bad. In my head it just seems like the worst thing ever ever ever but then I think of friends I know with spotty skin and I tell myself it is not so bad to have a few spots and it's better than picking and making it worse.... I think the key for me is not letting myself touch my skin in the first place. Trying not to care about any spots or bumps or scabs I might have. But it is hard! Anyway I am allowing this one slip up but only once, since it was only 5 minutes. The day time is now the hardest part - I seem to be managing morning and bedtime routines fairly well now becasue I am always really focused. But in the day I forget how important it is not to touch. Anyway, on to day three tomorrow. I might wear gloves...
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March 11, 2011

:( as soon as I posted that comment I picked for an hour... even got the tweezers out which I had hidden. really bad on my forehead. Grrrr I hate this so so so so so so so much. Back to day one. I don't think I liked the pressure of lent any way :( Booooooo I am sorry everybody but I will keep trying :(
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March 11, 2011

oh I'm so sorry!! I completely know what that feels like. to be so proud or determined and then to have your own self mess it up. I think that's what other ppl don't get--it's just not as easy as having will power. if we all spent as much energy as we do trying to stop on our "willpower" and that was really te answer we'd all be magically cured!!! this is te hardest work I've ever had to do and I'm sure it's like that for you too I would imagine. don't worry. tomorrow is a new day! you can have your own delayed start to lent. nobody will tell :) good luck tomorrow! it's not just you. it could/probably will happen to all of us
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March 11, 2011

I think it gets harder once you have slipped up once. It's easier to tell yourself there's no point, you've already failed so you might as well go the whole way! Plus I'm finding that actually it takes a lot of energy to stop, because I'm constantly thinking about it. It drains you and then it's harder to stay motivated. Just think how determined you were when you first wrote this thread. You need to try and find a little bit of that strength to get you going again. DO NOT GIVE UP! Wake up tomorrow with a fresh outlook, and don't think about the past. It's a new start. Cover up your mirror again, hide your tweezers (give them to someone else if you have to!!) and shower in the dark. It seems silly but it helps. I used to have a little mirror in my handbag and one in my office desk drawer. I took them both, plus all the removable mirrors in my house (including one hidden down the side of my bed! lol!) and gave them to my boyfriend to hide. Doesn't mean it's not hard not to pick at home in front of my full length mirror, but not having access to the two little mirrors during the day has been a MASSIVE help. I keep finding myself going to get them without thinking bout it, and the only thing that is stopping me destroying my face is that they aren't there anymore!! 'no more' maybe lent was too big a goal. I'd go back to taking it hour by hour. And have a real treat in mind for the end of each day you make it. Since your record is three days, have something truely amazing lined up for the end of day three, something to focus on if the urge gets too strong. Three days is 72 hours. Many of those you are asleep for. So, if you make it to a day and a half, you're already half way there. Come on woman. I'm not giving up on you, and i'm not letting you give up on yourself! :) Go back over this thread, and see how well you've been doing and promise yourself a fresh start tomorrow with no blame for your slip ups. If any of us thought this was easy, we wouldn't be on this forum! Good luck.
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March 12, 2011

:) your post made me smile - thank you! It's nice being congratulated for making it through one day by people who know how hard it is :) I have put my tweezers away and am going back to doing all bathroom things in the dark! I feel ridiculous but I know it is worth it. Thinking about it is reeeally draining and I always think that if I let myself look at my skin then I'd stop obsessing but that is such a lie. The more we pick the more we feed into obsessing, so I am sure that there will come a point when thinking about it stops being so draining. Keep going! I have sort of put my life on hold at the moment while I sort this out - am absolutely determined to crack it this time. When I look back over the past three weeks I can see that I have been consistently better - have managed quite a number of days pick free but every couple of days there's usually a long session on that horrid day 3 I just can't seem to beat! But it is encouraging to look back over the past weeks and see that the constant effort is at least having some effect. I am so so soooo hoping to get past three days this time so am not giving up. Am treating every day as if it is day one - remembering that I have to make a constant effort every single day if I want to beat this. Otherwise I start forgetting how easy it is to pick. It's stupid but after 2 days it's almost like I can't remember how bad picking actually is and I lose the motivation I have on day one and all I can think about is how much I would enjoy picking. I forget about all the pain that comes with it! Silly me. Am trying to remember that this time. Thank you everyone you are an immense help. And well done llama06 for keeping so strong you are an inspiration and I cannot wait for the day I can tell you I made it past day 3!!
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March 20, 2011

Hello nomorepicking, you really inspire me by your determination, i feel your pain, i threw my tweezers out. I also filed my nails down reeeeaaly short, like almost painful short, id rather have screwed up fingernails than a massacred face (which mine is right now):( i'm back to day one tomorow but i am hopeful, keep working at it, and i will do the same
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March 11, 2011

hey fellow lenters. day 3 and I slipped. picked for about 10 mins just now and I feel sooooo low. I was so excited to have this goal. and now I'm so let down. what's worse is I hate telling my boyfriend when I've had a setback. so just thinking about seeing him tonight is making me nervous. and I'm most prone to picking when I'm apprehensive or nervous. I'm thinking of giving myself a pass but I know I'm only cheating myself. I really wanted to complete this for lent. thanks for the posts below. they're very motivational. hopefully I'll feel better soon but my stomach is in knots right now
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March 12, 2011

but only 10 mins! Well done for not letting yourself pick for longer. I have come to the conclusion that lent was too big and scary to tackle - I am taking it one day at a time now. Join me! When I have had a good few days and then I let myself down by picking a bit I try to tell myself that I have at least given my skin time to heal which will make the next day easier. You are starting back at day one but you have just given your skin three whole days to heal with only a bit of picking! That is really good! Whatever you do don't give up and give in to a long picking session - that's what I usually do and three hours later I wish I had just stopped after 10 mins :( I know it is upsetting when you slip up after doing well but look on the positive side that you didn't pick for too long. Start again tomorrow and try to beat your previous record. If we do that for long enough we will beat this in the end! I know how hard it is but we are all in this together and we can all support each other. What we are doing is much more challenging and life changing than the average lent! We can have our own lent. Plus I reckon we should be rewarding ourselves more often than once on 40 days! I'm trying to come up with a good reward for day three - I have a few tv programmes lined up but I'd like a better motivation than that!!! Try to think of something you can reward yourself with too :) Let's try to congratulate ourselves rather than beat ourselves up like we usually do! Good luck. Stay strong.
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March 15, 2011

thank you so much!!! i haven't been on in a few days (actually since i wrote that last one) b/c i was moving all weekend. which was a great distraction from picking cuz i was always around people and just so physically exhausted. but, that's not to say i haven't picked here and there - honestly, after "ruining" official lent, i kinda felt like oh well, just a few mins here and there. but you're right, there's no way we could do the traditional lent. this isn't giving up sweets or booze! this is seriously the hardest thing i've ever dealt with. so, thank you so much for the encouragement and support - it truly makes a difference! you've inspired me to go cold turkey again!! tomorrow will be my new day 1 :) and i'll def. think of a reward for making it to 3 days, i hadn't thought of doing that before! good luck tomorrow!
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March 12, 2011

Day 1 - so far so good! Am not dropping my guard down this time though - am expecting a challenging (but successful!) day tomorrow.
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March 12, 2011

messed up again :( only for 15 mins but that's enough. It's 1pm but I am going to make this day 1 otherwise I will give up and pick properly. Here we go again.
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March 13, 2011

I am starting from scratch yet again tomorrow. It's 1am and I've been picking for the last hour. I think I have stopped believing I can do this... need to be more positive. Felt really depressed today about the whole thing. Told my best friend at uni about it though and it turns out she picks her skin too - not to the same extent but as a sort of bad habit she does every now and again. I'm glad I told her. Hope you are all doing better than I am! Will write again tomorrow, hopefully with good news.
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March 14, 2011

Day 1 - Completed. Have the most annoying spots in the world on my cheek which are itchy and massive but have not given in. Hurray. Am sceptical about tomorrow...
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March 14, 2011

that's awesome!! seriously we have all been there and have felt that uncomfortableness but to finally realize that you are not gonig to make it any better and the itchiness is your skin healing is key. stay strong!
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March 14, 2011

Stay positive!! Look at what you have just written. You have spots on your cheek that are itching and annoying so you are constantly aware of them and YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN IN!!! I hope you can see what an amazing thing that is! I only know you through this thread, but I know enough to be able to say that you would not have been able to do that a few weeks ago. You wouldn't have even tried. Really really happy for you to have made that much progress. Tomorrow is another day, with its own challenges but the fact that you made it through a difficult day is really truly fantastic. :D
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March 15, 2011

i know what you mean about the areas that itch and bother you. it's like there's a neon blinking sign on your face hypnotizing you. sometimes, when it itches, i put ice on it for a while. that way, the skin gets numb and kind of puffy (i.e. not as itchy and definitely not very easy to pick). hope you're staying strong!
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March 14, 2011

I haven't picked in a few days. I've covered the spots on my back with neosporin and band aids and I exfoliate every night. No more scabs! Just shiny pink spots which is definitely good news. The urge to pick has reduced significantly seeing as there are no more scabs to pick at. I'm very happy :-)

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