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August 31, 2012

Im exactly the same way!
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August 18, 2012

Day 2 so far so good. No picking it is early yet though. Got up washed my face little flakes came of around the edges by themselves though...which i think is good..still a good size scab..pretty dry and a little brown looking. Will keep applying calamine this does seem to help keeps the itching at bay. Plus with the pink lotion on my face i can write it off as a bug bite....well in my mind anyway...while doing my errands today...lol
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August 18, 2012

im proud of you ! it was good to read that you walked out of the bathroom and it didnt pick when you so easily could have. thats such a huge step in the right direction !
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August 18, 2012

Whoop hoo the scab came off. Looks a lot better. Little pink. I think I have a scar :( this I will live with as a reminder of what picking does. I am going to start using a scar cream and hopefully that will minamize it. I am going to try not to be self conscious of it as at least....finally it is healed. You guys I am telling you calamine lotion I think is what finally helped. For 3 nights I put a globe on. Yes by the 2nd night it was dried up and scabby...but this afternoon the scab just rolled off. Any of you have any suggestions for scars. I have areas with little ones that are not of much concern....but this one is a little bigger and a little more noticeable.
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August 19, 2012

Yay success :) and many congrats on seeing it through with full determination. Right, you know I said I have approx 5O scars, well today I noticed they were all very faint! That was an unexpected glance. Bio oil always works on my scars though the reviews swing both ways. I used to use it as a night treatment, and plan to start it up again when I stop feeling irritated by the hot nights here these days. Also being fussy about my long hair doesn't help. A more clinical product is Strivectin spot treatement which is a £45 pen that only has positie reviews. Brought it. Yet to use it.
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August 19, 2012

Do you think vitamin e oil would work as well as the bio oil? I am sticking to my new routine. Still looking in the mirror only long enough to wash...dry...treat and moisturize. Then I am out of there. Any longer and I am afraid I am going to find something that needs to be picked. So far 2 days no picking. Shooting for day 3.
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August 19, 2012

Well some people claim that it is the massage action that helps the scar fade, whilst using vitimin E oil. I have never used it despite having it in the house, but I know people like it to maintain healthy skin overall. For scars, i opt for something stronger. Will need to research that one.
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August 19, 2012

I have a scar cream i am going to try. I am sitting here thinking "seriously missy so what you have a few scars. So what. It could be worse. You could have cancer...be paralized..be homeless...so many other things. And here you sit all poor poor me with a few little scars" Right so i have just berated myself when things could be so much worse. Other people out there have had much worse things happen to them and they make the best of it and move on. So i am going to try really hard to change my outlook on life and be a better person.
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August 18, 2012

Hi Im 33 years young and this skin picking is taking over. Its is such a bad habit. I wake up picking,talk on the phone picking, go to bed picking. I think my issue started with nailbiting then I realized if i get my nails done I wont bit them......Well that worked for nailbiting however it made me start picking. Over the last ten years I have been dealing with this issue. I thought I was a nerve condition like anything stressful will trigger my to bite my nails or pick. Just glad that Im not alone thanks for this site.
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August 19, 2012

Day 3...no picking. No spots to pick yeah trust me i have analized every inch of my face looking. Not happy about my scar but am hopefull it will fade over time. Looking forward to the wedding today since i no longer look like a train wreak...lol 27 more days to reach my goal. So far so good. Have a good day all!!
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August 19, 2012

I'm so happy to have found this! I had no idea that what I do to my poor face was a known disorder. I almost cried at the thought that I'm not just disgusting and weak. I go through ups and downs, but I've been going pretty hard for almost 4 years, now. Summer is the worst (I'm a teacher's aide), followed by the other breaks, and weekends. I've got picture day on Tuesday, and I'm thinking about asking to sit out. I've been using a game called SuperBetter (superbetter.com) to track my progress in other areas (like depression, and social anxiety). I was feeling so incapable of completing my "Epic Win" of letting my face clear up by picture day, that I stopped going on the site for almost a week. I finally changed my Epic Win, and reworded some of my "Power-Ups" to put less pressure on myself... and then I found this site! I feel so much more capable of breaking this habit, now that I can see it for what it really is! P.S. Watch the most recent talk by Jane McGonigal on TED.com, about a game that can add 10 years to your life. It chronicles her quest to make a game that can help people live longer (and happier) lives, while she battled the symptoms of her own traumatic brain injury.
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August 19, 2012

Well. I didnt feel to self concious at the wedding...just a little. Looked ok at least i did not have a big scab or open sore. Now i have to deal with the scar. :( want to pick at that to make it go away which i know will not help. But i feel i have to do something. If it isnt one.thing it is another. My sister is so much better at this than me. She had a spot and didnt have makeup on and it did not bother her what so ever. God i wish i could have her confidence.
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August 19, 2012

Morning everyone, Michelle here. Just a few hours over 3 days clean of picking.!!!So, yesterday was a good day...spent the whole day from 9-6pm cleaning the shed so my mind was occupied. Didnt think to pick at all. I was very aware of not touching my face as my hands were covered in muck and that tends to be a weak spot for me. Sometimes I may not pick but I will rub my hands all over my face to check and in the meantime i have spread dirt everywhere, which seem to create them. I am also washing my hands whenever i have the NEED to pick and this gives me time to talk myself out of it. thats helping heaps. (only on the kitchen though not the bathroom!!) And I really believe the latex glove trick is the best. I use them every night and so far right till the time I go to bed. Its working really well so far. I cannot pick with these on. I have been watching the healing process of my skin, something I have NEVER done before. I had my big chin one and that has all but gone..a little redness but nothing bad. My nose has healed great. There is which I mentioned last time one of those white balls on my chin and I have watched it for 2.5 days now and I can see that it is naturally moving to the top of the skin. It is still about 3 layers deep so I am NOT going to dig for it. It is so small maybe a pin head certainly not worth ripping my face apart. Everything on my face is healed. I have a small amount of scarring however am going to leave it and see what the healing process does. I am using Dove Soap and my hands to wash makeup etc off, then Foban antibiotic cream after the shower then dr haushka face cream. Thats it...nothing else at all. I spent many many many hours in the mirror picking so since i have stopped picking I have started to put tanning lotion on and am really happy with the results. (over my whole body) When I do something good for myself I wanna keep doing good things but when Im picking and scratching I feel bad and worthless and dont do anything good for myself. I do the no eating thing to feel like shit, look like shit then start picking again!!!!. I can tell you that that doesnt work!!! On a lighter note.......my partner of 13 years suggested to me that I could change my picking addiction for a sex addiction and he will be my number one support person!!!!! OOOOHHHHH PLEASE hahaha...gotta laugh. XX Hi soembarressed......thinking of you!! Keep up the good work... chat again soon.
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August 21, 2012

Hmmmm. Washing hands to talk onself out of it. I like it. Worth giving it a shot.
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August 31, 2012

Annie here. Totally get it. I am 52 and started picking scans when I was about 8. It then progresses to picking zits and blackheads on my face and back. I have some permanent scars on my face from picking and still get sits on my face. I really relate to you and this blog. I am so ready to quit - I have two huge scabs on my face right. And with fresh scars. I've had it! I have another addiction which I have control over - I'm trying to use the same philosophy on my face. I'm starting today.
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August 19, 2012

I want to thank everyone on this site. You are very helpful and supportive and i could not get through these tough days without you all! And i hope i am as helpful to you all as you are to me! THANK YOU!!!!
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August 21, 2012

You give me a glimmer of hope. Thank you :) xxx
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August 20, 2012

Day 4 no picking - this dang scar itches though - so I have itched just a little bit but no removing of skin - which is good. Just wish it would stop itching....UGH....driving me crazy. Bad enough it is there but it has to itch as well to remind me that it is there. Geez like I could forget...lol
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August 20, 2012

Oh the itching is just the zit saying "Thank god you left me alone for five minutes so that I can heal."......Your doing very good. Keep it up. I have a white ball on my chin and has been for 4.2 days!! I think Im gonna name it if its still there tonight. :)
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August 20, 2012

Thanks. I hope it continues to heal. It is now a slight indented wrinkly area on my face. Makeup kind of sinks in so i cant even cover it. So annoying!! Good job at leaving your little face friend alone. Keep it up dont mess with it!!! Hands off!! Maybe we should all name these pesky things as we dont pick at our friends. Lol I am going to name mine "pucker" as that is what it looks like..puckered skin!!! Lol
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August 21, 2012

Bongo. That's the name given to any massive bump in my household, which no make up can ever conceal. I don't even know why it was named that many yrs ago. Haha I love the statement that we never pink on our friends. I guess we see these pesky things as enimies so beat them up... not that we would dare do that to a person. Yet we treat ourselves more harsh than an enemy when it comes to respecting the skin.
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August 20, 2012

Keep going sweet, you're an inspiration xx
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August 20, 2012

Yes i agree. Go for it! If one of us makes it, the others will see light at the end of the tunnel. X
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August 21, 2012

Day 5 - no picking!!! 25 more days to reach my 30 day goal of no picking!!!!
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August 21, 2012

Congratulations on your progress! Your determination is an inspiration!
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August 21, 2012

I am struggling today...:(
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August 22, 2012

That's okay. It is what makes us human, we swing both ways. Everyone can see you're trying so hard and you have already hit goals that I would be on a high about, even though you're demanding tougher goals from yourself. Thirty days Melissa, is acievable only by you, because it was set by you. I am still aiming for two days lol. Rubbish I know but in comparison, see how far you have come? So smile over aiming higher because we all set ourselves attainable goals. No pressure. You are encharge and you can even change it as you want. Your feet look okay without the pedicure for another month. Your face is what everyone sees so for now simply take one day at a time. Or use a calander where you can rip off each date to make you feel that day is behind u (if slipped up) or a countdown of days to tear off for satisfaction. Number 1 being the final day of 30. X
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August 22, 2012

Day 6 - no picking - but I did do a little scratching at this dang scar. UGH. I hate how uneven it is and keep thinking if I just scratch/pick it a little it will be more even. Looks like a dang dried up prune on my face. Pucker (thats what I call it) just needs to go away, even out or something
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August 23, 2012

ugh...thats all I got for today!!!!!!
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August 24, 2012

New Day - Day 8 no picking - scratching yes - but picking no - wishing all of you a wonderful day - pick free!! And if you faulter sending hugs your way!!!
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August 24, 2012

You're doing well :) keep on at it xxx
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August 26, 2012

Day 9
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August 26, 2012

Feeling ugly!!! Everyone at the family reunion has beautiful perfect skin! Just want to go home and hide!!!! :( :( :(
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August 26, 2012

sorry to hear this ): i have the same problem. ill go out and feel like i look okay ish and then i see other people who have just glowing and radiant skin and want to just go home and cry. we can heal though ! i know sometimes it doesnt seem like it... but i promise we can and we will . please stay strong, keep that chin up and if it helps, just focus on when you finally will get to go home, take of all your makeup and finally feel comfortable and safe !
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August 26, 2012

Thanks. Home no makeup and feel human again. My daughter says "mom you are beautiful. I dont see any mark. It has healed!!" It is so true we see what others cant. It just blows my mind as all i can see is a big uneven red mark. Bless her heart.
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August 27, 2012

Day 11 - holding strong - no picking at all!!!!!
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August 28, 2012

Day 12....
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August 30, 2012

Day 14...getting easier!
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August 30, 2012

Day 14...getting easier!
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August 31, 2012

OK I have not been picking but my skin looks so bad. I hate having to look in the mirror. I dont like what I see. Red scar...huge pores...uneven skin tone. I thought with no picking my skin would start to look bettet but it has been 2 weeks since my last picking episode and I still look and feel like hell!!!!
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September 01, 2012

Day 16...:( picked just a little at my scar...didnt do any damage just kind of scratched atoubd it hoping to even it out just a little. Whole action took less than a min as I stopped myself right when I reached for the tweezers. Trying bio oil...maybe this will help.
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September 04, 2012

You are doing great! I am so happy to read about your plan (and success)! I stopped picking 4 days ago and it has been such a struggle. I know what you are going through. I wanted to mention something that is helping me. I am not the type of girl to do the acrylic nail thing, but when I decided to stop picking I made an appointment at the nail salon and had my nails done. I need them to be somewhat short because I still have to cook, clean, type, and so on, but I make sure that they do have some length. Not only does it make picking difficult, it is also a reminder every time I touch my face that something is different (not the normal nails I'm used to picking with). It helps to snap me out of "mindless picking" and it allows me to think through what I'm about to do. Anyway, it helps me. Good luck to you!
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September 06, 2012

I, Myself have found this to be an AMAZING trick, one thing you have to be careful of, is Infecting your spots, I managed to be so obsessive about picking, I would find a way to pick, because they are false nails, more bacteria hides underneath them, nothing that would hurt you, but your spots can sometimes get aggravated and infected, Definitely worth the try as long as you give them an extra good wash, Ive become addicted to my nails, its a little treat for myself, you do need to be aware of the little things tho :) Most certainly worth a try, it worked wonders for me :)
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September 05, 2012

Well 18 days all I can go. Day 19 I couldn't stand it. Picked anything I could see. My chin gets little white bumps that seriously wont go away until I pick them. So I did and now feel like a piece of shit. I dont think I did serious scab over damage but I still picked!!! Damn it...I hate this!!! I think this is the way I will be for the rest of my life. Red..bumpy..blotchy..uneven skin!! Not picking doesnt work. Picking doesnt work. I am dreading getting up in the morning as usually after a day of picking i awake with whiteheads and or zits....unhappy!!
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September 05, 2012

So embarrassed: A few things, starting with: Hold Everything! We won't tolerate all the negative self talk. You've been doing AMAZING and a slip is just that. A slip. They are, I hate to say, inevitable. You don't need to start at zero, just take note of what caused the picking, what circumstances and feelings preceeded it, and try to take that knowledge into future days. You ARE making progress and you WONT be a prisoner to this for the rest of your life. It has its days over us but as you've counseled so many of us, when that happens it's simply time to reach for the next new day and the new chance to not pick.As for waking with zits after picking, I reccomend Klaron (generic name something like Sulfacetimide). I put it on picked skin and it prevents swelling and zit forming 100% (That plus the prescription pill Spirnalactone which decreases oil production). Hope that tip helps but for now: how about doing something really nice for yourself? Something to reward yourself for all the good work? Like a pedicure. Or even just a bubble bath?
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September 05, 2012

Soembarrassed, Valentine has hit the nail on the head! You have been doing amazing! Your also only human! everyone has these slip up! its not something to beat your self up over, Just think about what it was that made you start picking, and be more aware of it, if you find your self feeling like you want to, go and do something else. Its all about switching your focus. Its not a breeze to do, and it wont happen over night, but in a month or so, you'll think back, and see how much of an improvement you have made. :) It WILL get better, I never thought it would myself, now I am completely rid of it and I want to help others to rid of it too. Like Valentine said, reward your self for the effort you put in. Set your self daily goals to not pick, each morning wake up and tell your self your skin is beautiful and it IS healing. Turn your negative self talk into a positive encouraging self talk. "Wow, Ive been doing so well, If I can achieve this today, imagine what I will achieve tomorrow" because Tomorrow is always a new day. :)
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September 05, 2012

Thanks everyone for snapping me back in place. You are right I should not be so hard on myself. Yest was a bad poor me day. Today not feeling much better..still depressed but I am trying to shake it. Thanks for the words of encouragement and suggestions. I really appreciate all your kind words. Yes I am strong until I break down. It then just seems to spiral out of control. :S
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September 06, 2012

Your always strong, EVEN when your breaking down, because you can always pull your self out of it :) Each day you come across will be hard, but it WILL get easier, Try and think of at least ONE positive thing about each day, even if the only positive thing is that your had bread in the house to make toast for breakfast, it ment you didnt have to skip that meal and feel hungry :) OR that it was a sunny day, and remind your self today is going to be a GOOD day, it really helps, a positive person heals faster, tell your self that today your skin is more healed then yesterday, that can be your positive for the day :) and when your feeling really low, try out your smile, Smile as BIG as you can, I can almost guarantee you wont feel so upset afterwards :)
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September 07, 2012

Ok I have not been picking!!! Whoo hoo! How do you guys handle the ugly mess left behind? I am still embarressed to go out with thus butt ugly scar. It is worse than the picking marks as they go away. My last picking left a nasty scar and I am so upset by the way it looks!
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September 07, 2012

i handle it by avoiding the mirror as much as i possibly can !

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