I am brand new to this site. I'm about to cry because I thought this only affected me. It's my dirty little secret. I have been picking my skin since I was a child (nearing 40 now). My parents tried everything to help me, but nothing worked. When I was working, I was in therapy and they put my on Prozac because researched found Prozac helped with OCD (I have a OCD problems).
I am so ashamed that in all of these years I haven't been able to stop for any long period of time.
My skin picking is the #1 reason I have been avoiding dating. I'm afraid to be intimate with a man. I don't want guys asking me why I have so many marks on my body (a guy I was seeing would always ask me), I'm afraid that I would get make-up all over him (I used to wear ALOT of foundation to cover) and I never wanted anyone to ask why I didn't wear a bathing suit or clothes that show off my back or front. It's because I have black marks nearly over every part of my body.
Since I'm getting closer to 40, I'm ready to settle down, but I'm afraid to let someone get that close and see the "real" me. Make-up has always been my security mask. I very rarely go out without foundation on. Men say they like the natural look, but if they saw me, I don't think they would like me and not be willing to get to know the person inside.
I don't want to be alone the rest of my life, but I don't know how to let go of the fear and break out of my self-imposed isolation.
How do others deal with dating?