My forty-day plan....WHO'S WITH ME?!


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November 30, 2009

I'm in with you! DAY ONE.
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November 30, 2009

Thank you, Hope!!!!!!!! And DAY ONE was a success! One down, thirty-nine to go. How about you, Hope? Success? I'm rooting for you! Much love to everyone, we can do this!
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December 02, 2009

Ok, almost the end of DAY THREE for me! This is definitely hard because I tend to think about it a lot when I'm at home after work, but I think I've been good about occupying my time :) Excited about doing this and knowing that I'm not alone! Good luck to everyone!!
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December 02, 2009

Way to go! * high fives * I'm very happy for you! Keep strong!
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December 03, 2009

You too :) It really helps knowing that I'm not in this alone... more than you know! And I've got the 40 day countdown (in numbers) written down on my mirror. So satisfying to mark '40', then '39', then '38' off :) Tonight will be '37' and I'm already seeing good results!
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January 25, 2010

I have been picking at my facial acne for several years, and I have thought I was alone. Now I have found this site, and I realize that I'm not. I have tried to stop multiple times, but to no success. I pick my zits until they are bright red and bleeding. I hate the feeling of shame I get while doing it, and I really hate walking into school with bright red zits all over my face. My self-estime is always low. Being in middle shool, looks seem to really matter to everyone (though not to me) and I want to fit in. Reading all of your stories inspired me greatly, and I really want to try this 40 day picking withdrawl. I cannot believe other people are like me. Thank you so much for sharing your stories. Okay, DAY ONE starts tomorrow. I think, because I have told you all this now, I will not only feel a committment to myself, but to you all too. So thank you all very much and I hope I will be blemish-free within 40 days! ~Dust PS-I will put a sticker on my calendar, too!
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November 30, 2009

I'd like to give it a try, but I will have to be on day one tomorrow (Dec 1). Is it okay if I'm a couple of days behind you?
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December 01, 2009

Sweetie, it doesn't matter when you start. What matters is that you start in the first place! Good luck, I'm rooting for you!
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December 01, 2009

I've been picking since I was a child, the last few years it's gotten really bad. My shoulders and back are covered in scars because of it, I'm so sick of seeing scars/scabs every time I look in the mirror. I'm always trying to stop but always fail horribly! Some moral support would be helpfull, I'm 16 as well and can't talk to my parents about this. It's just too embarrassing! Anyway I would like to try this out, I'm sure I'll be starting over 6 million times but.....at least I can say I tried.
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December 02, 2009

Hello Mecha! I know how it feels to be handling this thing all on your own, my parents didn't know about it for years. I do recommend telling your parents about this because they are your biggest supporters but if you feel that you can't do it, always know that there are people here on this site that know what you are going through and that are on your side. You can do it, sweetie. It doesn't matter how many times you start this, what matters is that you start in the first place. We're here for you! Good luck!
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December 01, 2009

I will definitely try! ok....day one I guess!! haha
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December 02, 2009

Awesome that you are joining the forty-day-thingy! Let's beat this together!
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December 01, 2009

Ok, I'm in. It might sound childish, but I'm going to put a sticker on my calender at the end of each day that I succeed!
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December 02, 2009

Hooray for joining the forty-day-thingy! Double hooray for the stickers! It's absolutely not childish, it's a good way to remember how many days you have been successful. You can do it and we're all here rooting for you!
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December 02, 2009

Yay, one sticker on the calendar for me! I keep having to stop myself, but so far it's not too bad. Good thing it's too cold for short sleeves, so I can't get to my arms that easily.
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December 02, 2009

Hello awesome people! First off, welcome to the new people that have joined the forty-day-thingy (I need a better name for this)! I will try to reply to all comments as well as add my own thoughts on this journey. Well, my computer was being evil yesterday. It wouldn't let me log on for some reason, so I couldn't tell anyone that DAY TWO was a success. The first three days are the most difficult, I froze in front of the mirror yesterday and couldn't move. I actually reached for my face but then I remembered my commitment. My commitment to my face, my life, my well-being in general. So then I moved....and ran away from the mirror! Haha, I have to make sure that I don't develop some type of phobia to mirrors once this is over....DAY THREE is almost over for me, and I am so glad that I have my family and friends backing me up in all this. I just told my best friend about the skinpicking and about my plan to fix it. She reached out and hugged me and told me how proud she was that I'm really trying to get rid of this. It made me appreciate our friendship even more, knowing that she would be here to help me. So, I want to let everyone here know that it's okay to tell your loved ones about this problem. I used to be so terrified about my parents finding out about this because I thought it was so disgusting and that they wouldn't understand. I was so wrong. My parents are actually my biggest cheerleaders! The support and love that they are giving me really help me find the strength to fight this. So, moral support is definitely a must. And don't you go and tell me that you don't have anyone to back you, because I AM HERE. I am here. And so are others that completely understand your struggle. We're here. We're in this together, everyone. Let's beat this! And it all starts with DAY ONE...Much love!
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December 02, 2009

Hello! I am in too, since I found out that this thing I have been doing in some form or another for 35 years (now 42) is a condition that thousands of people suffer from, I have hardly picked at all. But I did a little last night, so I am starting again from today. You are so right, if you can just break the habit for 40 days, you almost certainly won't feel the urge to pick any more. It's all about awareness, and being in the moment in another way, instead of achieving that by picking. And the look of the healing skin will spur us all on. And knowing where the dangers lie, for you mirrors, for me, evenings watching TV... Good luck everyone!
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December 03, 2009

i skinpick only when i am stressed out. i am applying to medical school this year and i cannot stop. it is only one scab at a time but it seems every time that one scab heals i somehow start another one. i also do it in the mirror and when i am alone so im going to avoid mirrors and make sure i do work at the library. i really would like to stop--i don't know why i do this i am happy with the way i look and this is the only thing that makes me unhappy. maybe if i have this to focus on and relieve stress i distract myself from my real anxiety about this entire application process and the changes that will inevitably in my life next year. this happened also when i was applying to college except instead of skinpicking i developed an eating disorder. as soon as i was in to school i completely stopped and was eating completely normally again so now i see the cycle starting over with something new. i need to really address my anxiety issues because i will constantly have to deal with rejection in life and it is something i should learn not to take so personally. i feel like it's very easy for me to self-analyze and recognize where my compulsions stem from but very hard to fix them :(. to try and stop during finals and interviews seems quite challenging but i want to try and start this now. i figure if i quit this and accept that it's ok to be stressed about the process i am going through then i will feel much better with myself. i have been trying to do a similar 40 day thing on my own but perhaps using this forum will help me stay motivated. my boyfriend is coming this weekend which will be good because every time im with him i never pick--good way to start the hardest few days! anyways words of encouragement are greatly appreciated--here's to day one.
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December 04, 2009

thanks nde for the inspiration to write. seeing the similarities in our situations made me feel a lot less alone. i am also planning to go to med school and studying for the mcats. i find that i spend so much valuable time in front of the mirror instead of in front of my books! this will be the first time i have made an open/public commitment to stop this thing that has been part of my life for far too long. i also suffered from an eating disorder and feel as if i have that under control, therefore i am ready to work toward letting go of skin picking. i find myself anxious even over the thought of it. as much as i am embarrassed to admit it is a part of my life, i have formed an extremely strong attachment to the habit. i have tried to reduce anxiety through meditation, yoga, running, and various other forms of relaxation/stress reduction but i think that the behavior is more than just a way to reduce stress for me. either way, i am ready to give 40 days a shot. thanks for everyone on here for your support. 1
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December 04, 2009

Dear nde and la17. I was overwhelmed to read your two posts. I too am in the midst of graduate school applications; I too had an eating disorder some years back; I too have a very real problem with my skin. Tonight I felt so sad and helpless about it that I fell into a sort of panic. It has never been so intense. I found this forum, this first one I have ever been on -- I never would have thought to write were it not for your two posts. I feel less alone. Thank you. D
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December 04, 2009

I am also in grad school (Secondary ed. and teaching credential) and had disorder-eating in the past (or maybe anorexia....I never truly told anybody about it). I scratch at my back (acne) and am also a perfectionist. I have a dance performance on Sat. and this is the motivation to leave my back alone right now.....for me, knowing someone will see my back is definitely motivation to leave it alone. Knowing I would be wearing a bathing suit was also effective UNTIL I got a "wetsuit top" which then hid my back and gave me an excuse to be able to pick it to death again. For me it is a largely a nervous, unconscious thing, so it is very hard to control. When I am conscious that I am doing it, have a sensation that I am "fixing" my back by getting the scabs off. I can't see what I do to my back so sometimes I've made deals with myself to only scratch it (helping it....) if I do it in a mirror, so I can consciously see what I am doing to myself and stop before it gets out of control. This has helped in the past. Also, I tend to unconsciously scour and scratch at it in the shower (especially if I tried to soak in a tub) so I try to take quick showers and completely avoid touching the area, or I will get started, unconsciously and before I know it, I'm a bleeding mess...... I think I go into a trance....dissociative type and don't know what I did, but when I "come to" I am filled with shock, remorse, guilt and shame....then I won't want to take my top off in front of my husband (or if I do, I try to make sure my long hair covers my back). My husband also called my attention to the fact that I scratch my back (unconsciously) while driving or riding in the car. For the people who know they have triggers, they are lucky, because they can pinpoint when they might start....for those of us who zone out....we aren't so lucky I think....much harder to get a grip on doing it. Of course, I am most likely to do it when I am alone (which is much of the day).....or in the shower.....
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December 06, 2009

Hello Winnie. Let me start by giving you a hug * hugs *. Dermatillomania is such a horrid condition since we lose our sense of control. It's high time to get it back. Even though lightly picking at your back may have helped you from going too far, I think it's time for you to quit cold turkey. But you don't have to do this alone! I have my mom stop me every time I unconsciously pick, your husband may be able to do the same for you. Also, here at this forum, we have many people that are in similar situations and we all support each other. Good luck, sweetie.
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December 31, 2009

Wow, it is great to know that there are other graduate/medical students that suffer from this. I am currently in my first year of med school and my picking is worse now than it has ever been. I am pretty sure that this is due to the stress of school. Well, the picking got so bad that I couldnt concentrate on studying, my anxiety ovewhelmed me, my other OCD symptoms amplified, and I finally fell into depression with everything that was going on. Well I am now in treatment and while I have not noticed much of a change (as far as the picking i concerned), I am hopeful for the future (especially now that I know that I am not alone in this and that I can use this site as an additional support system!!!) I am willing to give this 40 day challenge a try, especially as we bring in the new year! I have been picking for over 12 years now and every year it was my New Year's resolution to stop picking. Last year I changed that to seeking help since I had been unsuccessful in stopping, but this year I am going to try to completely stop again. Good luck to all of you out there, Im rooting for you :)
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December 04, 2009

No doubt, grad school is the worst for picking. I sit here working on my thesis with one hand constantly roaming around, looking for bumps and imperfections. Another unsuccessful day on my 40 day plan. I guess succeeding every other day is better than nothing.
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December 04, 2009

I GET THIS! i am a graduate student right now and in therapy and he wants me to log when and try and stop but i feel like i have nothing to replace it. when i go from studying one topic to the other i instinctively go to the mirror to check out my face. sometimes i have to go to the library just to make sure im in a public place and wont do it. good luck with this! if you figure out any way to deal with sstress effectively let me know1
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December 06, 2009

nde, welcome to the forty-day-thingy (which I keep calling, but it really needs a better name than that haha)! Stress totally gets me to pick as well and it just feels like I'm being bombarded with all sorts of things that just get me down. It's so frustrating! Gah! Okay, so what do you do to de-stress? Do you have any hobbies? I pick not only when I'm stressed but also when I have TIME. Try to do things that will distract you, but don't overwhelm yourself while you are at it. We're rooting for you and always know that you are not alone on this journey. Hugs and kisses!
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December 03, 2009

Well, day 2 was going really well until last night when I noticed a pimple on my cheek, and then I started laying into my arms and back all over again. I had to peel the sticker off of my calendar :( Guess I'll start again!
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December 06, 2009

As I said before, the first few days are the hardest! Just try again, Beth, I know that you can do it!
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December 04, 2009

Hey azure! Am loving your positive attitude about this whole thing...it's reminded me that it's not actually outside of my reach to actually quit this addiction without a substance! So thank you! Ever get those moments when you just need a bit of a reminder that it's do-able? Congrats to you azure and also to the rest of you guys that are on board for the 40 days concept for sticking to it so far - good luck :) So...today will be my Day #1! I've been partially off it for about 10 days now...but not completely...I let myself off with a bit of cheating. From today - no more cheating! P.S. the sticker idea sounds like a good plan, stickers are deffo going in the shopping trolley tomorrow!
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December 06, 2009

Hello there! Loving your attitude as well, Flux123! First few days are the hardest but don't let them get to you! And no worries about starting over again, I started this forum on my second attempt at the forty-day-thingy. Good luck, sweetie, and I'm here (and so are others!) if you want to talk and express your thoughts on our journey. :)
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December 06, 2009

Ah, totally starting over again! Kinda found myself cheating quite a bit over this weekend...revision for an exam I've got coming up on Wednesday...stress & boredom are not an ideal combination for kicking this habit! But here's to a fresh start. Night time always seem to be a bit trickier for me. How are the rest of you guys getting on? Hope all's going well :)
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December 21, 2009

Well, I started my 40 days on Thursday or Friday. I have to start all over, so it's Monday, Dec. 21 for me. Had a very emotional weekend, just threw me into a deep depression, so I just have to pick myself up and try over. I'll let you know.'
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December 07, 2009

Hi Azure, well I'm with you guys too......I only have this one area (my back) to NOT focus on right now....and it had been worse in the past. (more areas I was picking/excoriating)....a dance performance yesterday kept me from messing with it and I have another one in a week, so further incentive. winnie
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December 12, 2009

Hope you make it through the 40 days! its nice to know that others are trying to break the habit as well! my finger picking has gotten so bad lately! one minute i'm doing homework and the next thing in know i'm picking at my fingers again! Tomorrow morning begins the 40 day battle for will power! XD
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December 13, 2009

Count me in for the 40 day challenge! This is the perfect timing for me to be setting a new goal and the optimistic commentary that all you lovely people provide on this forum is exactly the kind of support that is needed. It is indeed a beautiful thing to know you are not alone. Tomorrow (Dec 14th) is day one for me!
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December 13, 2009

I didn't think it would be so hard! XD day 1 and i'm wearing my gloves! when i wear them i'm normally rubbing my skin against it like i'm still trying to pick but i've been trying hard to not do it! Have to keep reminding myself! Hope everyone is doing better!
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December 18, 2009

I'm willing to try the 40 day challenge. I have been picking at my skin a lot more in the past few weeks. What has led me to this forum is that I have begun picking my scalp, to the point where it bleeds. I didn't realize the extent of my picking until I colored my hair last night - OWWWWW - talk about burning! So I'm starting my 40 days right now, 4:00 p.m. local time. I understand that this is a compulsive disorder, and I believe my compulsion stems from stress. I was raped and sexually abused as a child. (That has been resolved, the guys who did this have all asked me for forgiveness, and I have forgiven them after a lot of prayer.) I was married, but my ex, who I'll call Don, turned out to be very cruel. he was aware of my abuse as a child, and when we first married he was very kind. However, about a year in, he began to demand we participate in threesomes, etc. I took my marriage vows very seriously, and under no circumstances could I allow another person in bed with my husband and I. To make a long story short, we divorced after 9 years. 2 1/2 years after the divorce, we got back in touch, and he convinced me he had changed. I so wanted to believe him, and had not even kissed another man since our marriage and divorce. We got back together, with re-marrying in the future - and then his parents became ill. I became the full-time caregiver of both parents. His mother had a terminal disease, his father had alzheimers. When I would bring up getting married, he would tell me he couldn't concentrate on anything with his mom dying and his dad ill. This went on for 5 years. My mother-in-law passed away and dad ended up in a care facility ( a very good one) because I couldn't take care of him alone anymore, as he had become physically violent without notice. The day his dad was admitted to the care facilty, Don informed me he wouldn't marry me if I was the last f--king woman on earth. I went back to school and was in the process of graduating from medical lab assisting, when Don went ballistic and took the car away (his car), and locked the phones and internet conection in the gun locker - and he had the only keys. I called my twin sister to ask to borrow some $$ to get a car, and Shelby (sister) and her husband were very concerned that Don's behavior was not only very irratic, but also he purchased a shotgun right around the same time he locked everything up. Shelby flew out, picked me, my cat and my clothes up and got me out of the state. Don has no idea where I am, and after 3 months, has made no attempts to locate me (Thank God). I am now living in the northwest with Shelby, her husband and my nephews. I am safe, I completed my externship and finally got my national certification. I am job hunting and I guess I thought that when I got my nationals done, I'd find a job right away. This is not the case. I keep submitting resume's to hospitals in my state and the next state up, but I have never been good at just sitting at home, so the longer the job hunt takes, the more stressed I get and hence, I've graduated from skin picking to scalp picking. I believe that the desire to stop injuring myself, along with prayer and help from the Lord will give me what I need to stop. I know that this isn't an easy thing to stop doing, but I guess I'm just to the point I want to stop picking more than the compulsion to pick. Now that you've read my life story,I would ask for your prayers, and I will be praying for everyone on this site. We are all in this together, and it is a blessing to have some place to talk about this - none of us wants anyone to know what we do, but in order to heal, we have to talk about it and share our stories. So, here's to all of us skin/scalp/nose/feet pickers, who feel like lepers. We aren't, we just deal with stress and such differently than other people. Any comments, input, questions, etc, are welcome. I feel like we are a family, part of a club none of ever wanted to join. But I also try to see the positive - I believe that going through this will make me more compassionate to other people who struggle with compulsions, and make me more able to reach out to others I meet who are struggling.
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January 04, 2010

Ok I am in my forty day plan starts today! January 4th 2010 I have been picking for five years now an I am pretty sure it is due to the intense stress that I have been dealing with at in college. It took a looong time to admit it was a problem and not just a bad habit so here goes! I am happy to be doing this with others and look forward to posting my progress. How is everyone doing? It seems like I havent heard of success past a few days yet. I would love to hear some updates and if anyone would like to start or needs to start over today or sometime this week we could create possible a more intimate support group via email. Let me know! Good luck to everyone we can do it!
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January 29, 2010

I am in too. Day 1 starts this morning (Jan 29) when i wake up. This whole "don't spend long in the bathroom" thing sounds like a great idea to me...maybe i'll get a lot of my day back too!!
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January 06, 2010

Ok I'm in! I've been picking my body my whole life well atleast as long as I can remember. I pick my face, back, arms, legs and I even pick those that I love! I waste many hours in the bathroom in front of the mirror and I hate that this obsession is controlling my life! I do it so often that I don't realize I'm doing it most of the time until I've made myself bleed! I haven't really been able to figure out what caused this for me. I had a great childhood, I feel like I'm pretty and I have a wonderful fiance! The only thing that I know is that when I pick I feel like I am "saving" myself from the stuff in my pores! Ahhhh!!! I want in on the 40 day challenge! Jan 6, 2010
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January 13, 2010

Today is my Day One to break my habit of picking at the skin around my fingers, as well as biting the nails... I'm so glad I found this forum, as I thought all of the gross things I do were exclusive to me.
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January 14, 2010

Hello everyone. I'm a 25 year old graduate student, and I've been struggling with OCD, depression, anxiety and skin picking for most of my life. Like many of you have said, this forum is so amazing because it's such a wonderful thing to know that we really aren't the only ones in the world who do this, even though so much of the time it feels like we are. I just wanted to let everyone know about my blog, http://cult-of-one.livejournal.com/ I started therapy for anxiety and depression three years ago, and after getting those under control, was finally able to recognize the OCD for what it was. I started specialized treatment for the OCD and picking last year, and it has uncovered some really amazing things for me. I won't claim to have miracle cures or all the answers, but I started blogging about my experience in treatment because I was so frustrated for so many years feeling like no one with this problem has really discussed what the treatment process is like. Finding this forum about a year ago was really inspiring to me--just knowing I'm not alone!--and I want to share my experiences with others so maybe they won't feel so alone. It's difficult to face the treatment process, and the unknowns can be pretty intimidating. Like a lot of you, I didn't know what to do with myself when I couldn't pick, and I had to learn how to understand the process of changing my behaviors one by one. It's a difficult process, but there is treatment out there that works, and I hope I can share those experiences and strategies. Most of what I write about is the therapy process, strategies, processes that work and don't work for me and why, and the like. I also sometimes review books and articles that I've read that have been interesting or particularly helpful. There is no miracle cure for picking, but there are ways to win the battle. I'm so glad all of you have found this forum and are talking about your experiences- that's an important step and it takes a lot of courage to take it. I welcome any of you that are interested in checking out the blog, and I hope it is helpful!
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January 27, 2010

I have had enough im 14 and cant go on living life like this i pick my face almost every day and then try to justify it by saying " i only picked a little." well that is the end of that this is my DAY ONE and i must be strong. Thank you I really needed to find this site!! I really needed this post.
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January 31, 2010

Alright, I'm through with picking, scratching, and bleeding. I've picked my face since i was 11 and i am now 16 years old. I feel like this issue has taken over my life and I want to be with my friends again and not have to hide anymore. I feel so happy that I am not alone in this, even though my twin sister has the same issue but she will NOT admit to our problem. However, I'm really pumped for this forty-day plan thingy and I'm staring today! I hope that, if I succeed, I will inspire my sister to do the same :) and if anyone has any advice on how i can get through to my sister in the meantime, I would love to hear! thank you so much
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February 01, 2010

perhaps she's in denail because she is not aware that this is an actual condition, much like many of us weren't until we saw this site or other information, why don't you ask her to look at this site or even print off some of the article and forums for her to read
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February 02, 2010

Delta, thank you for your thoughtful suggestion, however I have already done some of those things that you have mentioned and I've just made her mad to even have her consider that she needs help... and to make matters worse, my face is bleeding- therefore, i have already cheated today, so i will have to start over again, with much discouragement coming from my sister as well :(
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February 04, 2010

Don't worry about your sister for now......if you find a way to stop she will learn more by your example than you trying to convince her.....I learned this because I also had a drug problem and my sister and I had to go through this very same issue, I am now 5 years clean and she is 3 years clean......I am the only one in my family with this picking problem though so I am really glad I found this group......just enjoy having people here that you can vent to in the meantime........I am in Omaha, NE......can you call long distance if you feel like picking? 402-714-2723........I know just sitting here reading the comments and replying has given me hope that maybe just for today I can quit.......I'll be back tomorrow to get help for tomorrow, until then I'm just going to try to stop for today
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February 07, 2010

jldoll01, thank you for the advice. I will try to set a good example for my sister as you did for your sister. i hope that i can over come this like you did with your drug problem. Also, thank you for your number, i hope that when i have the urge to pick, i may be able to text you? I live in Los Angeles, CA so i believe that the time zones might be a little different, but i hope that it will be alright. I'll try and make the effort to come on this site more often for strength to stop. thank you so much for the support
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February 02, 2010

I start tomorrow . Day 1 . Feb 3 2010 . im so happy i found a suport group. i thought i was crazy. this gives me hope. god bless everyone trying .
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February 03, 2010

i want to try, but i don't know if i have the strength! :\... i'll try starting tomorrow, cause i failed ultimately today... this is really great to know that it's not just me who does this!

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