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April 30, 2012

im in ! i have not picked in 10 days and intend to keep it up.
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April 30, 2012

Yay, way to go! I can't even remember the last time I made it 10 days. That's such an accomplishment! Day 1 here I go : )
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May 01, 2012

good luck!
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April 30, 2012

Okay, so it's Day 1. I need to set some boundaries and goals. Yours probably look different than mine and I think we all just have to find what works for us. I'm sure I'll be tweaking my plan of action often until I find a good balance. Goals / Boundaries -start my day with prayer and reading something encouraging. -I'm allowing myself to pick at two spots on my skin each morning. (30 seconds at the most) Not sure how successful this will be. I just know that in the past when I try to quit picking completely cold turkey, I go crazy after a few days when new blemishes come up and I can't do anything. Then I give up all together. So I'll see how this goes. I'm hoping I'll be able to pick at only two zits that are bothering me and then have enough self control to stop at that. That's the hardest part! Does anyone have any advice on an exfoliating face wash that really works to clear blackheads? -After that, I'm going to try to put on some makeup, just foundation, on my face simply because I tend to not pick when I've already put my makeup on. The problem with this is that I'm a stay at home mom and I don't necessarily NEED to get ready and leave the house everyday. Staying at home all day is really making this skin picking habit so much worse because I'm constantly faced with what I call "the battle at the mirror" because I'm always home and constantly tempted to pick. (I swear all my posts won't be this long : ) ) -I'm also removing all mirrors except for the one in my bathroom of course, a girl's gotta at least do a quick check in the mirror before leaving the house lol! I'm just removing the bright lighting in the bathroom. I plan on plucking my eyebrows in my car mirror, right before I leave, where it's really difficult to pick at my face but bright enough to see my eyebrows clearly. Any guys reading this are probably laughing right now. Any advice or tips on avoiding the temptation to pick at home would be helpful! Okay, so Day 1 is half over and feeling hopeful that I can do this if I stay focused!
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May 01, 2012

when im at home alone and know i wont be going anywhere i have my boyfriend take the lights from the bathroom. i always to him about how i wish we had a 'forcefield' around the mirror that wouldnt let me get close enough to pick. still trying to think of what kind of thing could do that, you know, something completely see through that forms a dome type thing around the mirror. a lot of times when im having a bad day, and being really anxious about my face, i do my nails (distraction), let them dry (because you cant mess with your face while your nails are drying! even though it has failed to stop me before), and pick off the polish (destructive compulsion fulfilled ! ). good luck, and don't worry, i doubt anyones laughing. we are all in the same boat here.
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May 01, 2012

Nails, good idea! Force field, even better, haha.
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May 01, 2012

Day 1 went well. I expected it to....it is the days that follow that will be tough. Just picked at one spot on my arm and that was it. Staying busy and away from mirrors!
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May 01, 2012

great job! don't worry about the days to come, we are taking it one day at a time, remember? just worry about right now. you can do it (:
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May 01, 2012

so i broke down and picked last night........ it was really dissapointing and i cried a lot. 10 days is a long way to go and i messed it up. but today is a new day, and i believe that when something like this has got you down, you can't dwell on it. you've gotta move on and do all you can to stay optimistic. i guess this would be day one for me, and im going cold turkey. if i pick at one spot on an arm or leg in a few days, i will let myself off with a warning. but any picking in the mirror and it's back to day one for me. im trimming my nails as short as i possibly can before i go get in the shower. wish me luck !
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May 01, 2012

I feel your pain. Been there done that like a million times. Seriously, it feels like a million times! 10 days IS a long time and you've gotta focus on that. Yesterday I read this on someone else's personal commitment challenge: "Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat" -F. Scott Fitzgerald. I know I'll be failing some in this journey but I guess if I can pick myself back up the next day, or even next hour, I'm still winning! So Happy New Day to ya.
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May 02, 2012

my day one went very well. i had a good day, didn't feel as ugly as usual, and not a single spot picked ! no facial itchiness or pain but i am having really annoying looking breakouts on my chin and forehead ): i hope i can deal with it. my boyfriend has 3 days off of work after today so hopefully that means he will be keeping me distracted from my face. i have been trying to think about my positive attributes, rather than my scabby face that disgusts me so much, haha. i think staying positive is a really key thing to beating this compulsion. when i can laugh and smile through it, it feels like i heal twice as fast.
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May 02, 2012

great to hear!
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May 02, 2012

Day 2. I did pretty well, stuck to my routine in the morning. Limited myself to picking at two spots in the morning although about twice through the day my hand wandered to my face or back and I scratched off something before I even had a chance to think about it. My hands just habitually scan my skin for anything, it's like I have alien hand syndrome. To be honest I feel like a freak when I talk about my picking in this kind of detail. It seems like such a random thing to have as a compulsion. Maybe it would be easier for me to face up to it if I was addicted to eating or not eating or cutting or something. Yet the truth is that it IS a big problem in my life and it holds me hostage, my secret that almost no one knows I struggle with. I want to be transparent and real and, well, this is me. Yesterday I was reading and came across the scripture talking about God giving "beauty for ashes." He seems to be in the business of creating beautiful things out of brokenness. No one is too far lost or broken. I believe my OCD is the ugliest and most shameful thing about me, although I'm sure He doesn't see it that way. I pray that he would create beauty from my ashes.
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May 04, 2012

I do the same thing with the Alien hand. I can be doing anything and the next thing I know I have picked a scab. I am so glad that I am not the only one. Thank you for sharing your story. It is nice to know that someone else goes through the same things.
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May 03, 2012

Day 3, it's getting harder to not pick. When I've tried to quit in the past, it's usually around this time or in a few days that I start to go crazy. I start feeling like my skin is screaming at me for a picking session where I literally pick at every single pore. So I need to find a good cleanser and exfoliating wash ASAP. I have to keep my hands away from my face, arms and back because every little bump makes me want to pick all the more. If I can get through in the next few days, I'll be making some pretty big strides. Anyone been to a dermatologist that suggested a certain acne treatment for blackheads? If I had the money, I'd go to a spa and have extractions done every other week. Just too expensive for me.
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May 03, 2012

when i get reeeeeeeeeeaaallly realllly anxious about the way my face feels, i exfoliate with salt. its very harsh and course and leaves my face all red for a while, but the feeling is so cleansing and i think that's what im after when i pick. good luck ! i really hope you can keep it up
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May 03, 2012

day 2. success ! im excited because usually, when i have made it so long with no picking(10 days), when i finally do break down and pick its daily, or every other daily for a while. i have only picked 1 day out of 13 which makes me so proud (: i know i am closer to healing than i have been in a very long time. i really really hope i can keep this up. posting my progress on here is helpful, because if i dont pick i can brag about it, haha.
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May 03, 2012

Way to go! I feel the same way. Once I break down and pick one day, I throw in the towel and continue to pick everyday for at least a month. Posting my progress daily is also helping me so much. I don't feel alone and I'm way more motivated because I know I have to share even if I totally mess up!
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May 03, 2012

In case anyone is interested....I researched a bit and found a few skin care treatments that are for breakouts and blackheads. They are pH balanced and so they're not too harsh and won't make your skin produce even more oil. The first one is Neutrogena - oil-free acne stress control hydrating acne treatment. Affordable (around $6)! The second one is Paula's Choice - 1%-2% beta hydroxy acid gel. I just ordered the last one online (2%) because of the great reviews. On the website, there's a sale section and they're actually selling it (in the old stye bottle) for half price. And I have a coupon code that you can apply BDAY245765 for an additional 10% off. So I bought two bottles and somehow qualified for free shipping. Total was $17.06, not too shabby!
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May 04, 2012

I live in the southeast corner of Oklahoma and have not been able to find anyone to help me with this. I am a 29 yr old mother of 2 and my youngest was drawing a pic one day of me & his dad and he put red dots all over my face in it and then showed it to me. He said these are your hurt spots mom. I pic everywhere! It makes me feel so ashamed. I don't like being doped up on OCD and anti-depressant meds. I want to be able to do this myself. I am so glad I found this site because now I don't feel all alone. I can now discuss all the questions I was to afraid to ask before. No one around me understands how hard this is or that it is not something that I can control. I have tried and failed within a day.
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May 04, 2012

Hey, I'm so glad you found this site. I'm new here but it was such a relief when I found it. I live in Northeastern Oklahoma, so we're close! I've had a similar thing happen where my two year old daughter tried to pull me away from the mirror, so embarrassing and shameful! We're all in the same boat. Hope you can find some encouragement and support here. There IS hope!
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May 08, 2012

You can do it. Its so hard I know. I also take pills for depression and bipolar. Today my doctor asked me If I had ocd for the first time. I found this website last night, I was thinking to myself I must have ocd and decided to try and look on the internet. This morning I knew what was coming when I went to the doctor. I have impetego for the third time and have had it tis time for almost 6 weeks. I am so sick iand I am not getting better. I need to stop. I take deep breaths all day too keep myself from crying and try not to talk to much incase I break down.
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May 04, 2012

day 3 went well. im getting frustrated though, just waiting for my face to heal. i really hate this part. i know how pretty i can feel when im more comfortable with my face and i want it so bad, i know keeping up with not picking is the only way i will get there again, but i feel like i have worked so hard and i deserve it now. on a lighter note, yesterday i wore a strappy sumer dress! i cant remember the last time i have shown my shoulders and back in public. i have some mild scarring on them from previous picking, but nothing really noticable from a distance. by now they are most tiny light pink dots. i fet comfortable in it in public and it was really liberating. i already messed with 3 annoying spots on my chin this morning (morning of day 4), but i stopped myself, and i wouldnt consider what i did picking. let's hope i can stay far enough away from the mirror that i dont do something worse.
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May 04, 2012

You can do it! For me, it's almost easier not to pick when my skin starts to really look better. It's when it's looking bad that I think, "well, it's already a mess so it doesn't matter anyway" Maybe you could challenge yourself to not even look in the mirror (even from a distance for 3 days). I'll have to do something drastic like this soon when my face starts driving me crazy. The only times I'm seriously tempted are when I'm touching my skin or looking in a mirror. Wearing a summer dress is a great win! Gotta celebrate the small things, right : )
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May 04, 2012

Day 4 was another good day! Just picked at two spots (usually it's the two that are looking the worst and really bothering me). I don't allow myself to re-pick at anything the following day though. I'd like to get to a place where I don't feel the need to pick at anything but for now this is an attainable goal for me. I'm proud that, so far, I have enough self control to stop at two. Anyway, doing well other than the wandering hands that pick at something before I think about what I'm doing throughout the day. Enjoying my skin as it starts to clear up and look pretty.
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May 05, 2012

yayyyyy! so good to hear (: i think that being able to pick at 2, and then stop yourself is almost more of a test of your will than not picking at anything at all. for me, picking at one tiny spot will often throw me into a picking frenzie. having the strength to stop before it gets out of hand after starting is something i have only been able to do a few times ever. praying that both of us can stay strong and overcome this
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May 05, 2012

day 4. went well (: i dont know why i am doing so well with this, but i wont question it because i am so grateful and beginning to have some real hope that i can beat this compulsions booty. really excited to keep it up, heal, and feel beautiful again! its spring time! what a wonderful time for such a wonderful change.
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May 06, 2012

day 5 was successful. starting to get really anxious though when i look in the mirror ):
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May 07, 2012

day 6 went okay... its getting really hard but i think im seeing real progress finally
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May 07, 2012

Feeling the same way, it's really getting hard now. If we can make it through this part though, we'll be so much stronger for it! Thanks for posting, knowing that I'm not alone is really helping me stay motivated.
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May 07, 2012

Day 5 and Day 6. I was busy this weekend and so that helped to keep my mind off my skin. At the moment, I have a lot of breakouts though and I had several times over the last few days were I was picking at my shoulders without really thinking about it. I wasn't in the mirror which means I didn't intentionally decide to go pick, so that's good. It's just so hard to find the self-control when my hand feels lots of bumps all over. And somehow in the moment, I say "I'm not really picking" completely deceiving myself. This is the hardest part for me. When my skin looks horrible, but feels clear, like after days and days of picking, it's easy to resist picking. But when my skin starts to breakout again after about a week, it drives me nuts. This is make or break time. I'm praying for strength. Here's to a strong 7th Day!
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May 08, 2012

ahhh i know ! this is the worst part. the picking makes you break out worse than you did when the breakouts you already had were making it so irresistable to pick. i dont know if this happens to everyone, but a lot of times my new breakouts are really itchy and irritating, making it impossible to stop thinking about them. we have to get through this part though, just a few more days until we are on the road to physical improvement ! (:
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May 08, 2012

Yes, it's the worst. I can see the tiniest spots on my face and arms that no one else would ever notice. I think one of the keys for me to get through this is to learn to be okay with having skin that doesn't feel smooth. I'm never going to have completely flawless skin but I think I can have healthy looking skin if I stop picking and find a good skin regimen. The perfectionist in me wants to "get rid of" the smallest of imperfections but then I end up looking so much worse.
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May 08, 2012

I have the same problem. I want to be beautiful but I keep making myself ugly and I hate myself so much for it.
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May 08, 2012

day 7. still doing okay. im starting to actually miss picking, not just getting anxious that i know i cant, but missing it. if i can get over it this time, i will be so grateful, but im also thinking about the fact that it will still tempt me for the rest of my life, i will have to make a consious effort not to pick forever.
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May 08, 2012

Yes I think about this too. I will come here, and read about other strong people who are going through the same thing whenever I feel the urge to pick.
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May 08, 2012

Day 7 I stuck to the plan. A whole week, that's something to celebrate! Feeling more confident with all of this. It's definitely hard with my skin really breaking out at the moment but I guess if it wasn't hard, I wouldn't be moving forward with each choice. I can't wait for my new Paula's Choice exfoliating gel to arrive in the mail!
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May 08, 2012

I am not religious in any way but I do feel that many religions send out a good message. I have a psyciatrists and he does not know about my picking. I should talk to him I wish you the best of luck and I send you and your family my love. I know you can do it.
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May 08, 2012

Thank you. I really appreciate your support. I'm definitely thankful for the message I heard at my church that day that gave me the push to face this part of my life. I wouldn't describe myself as "religious" simply because I have always been a skeptical person and have so many questions about faith. At the end of the day, though, I do believe in God. Love my church, we strive to create an environment where people are given space and where atheist, agnostic and believer can together try to figure things out. I hope you do talk to your psyciatrist. I need to find a counselor that specializes in OCD too. I think I could maybe get to the root of what causes my anxiety and causes me to pick at my skin as a result. Best wishes to you.
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May 08, 2012

Hey, I've had dermatillomania for just over 4 years and I just decided to start a blog, i'm gonna post what helps me everyday and what i find is working. I'm having counselling at the moment and its really helping to sort out all my thoughts out loud and to pin point why im doing this to myself. Check it out if you want =) http://ihavedermatillomania.wordpress.com/
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May 09, 2012

Day 8. Still doing well despite all my breakouts at the moment. Got too close to the mirror though, really really wanted to pick and had to pull it together to step away. Note to self, DO NOT lean over the sink!
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May 10, 2012

my 8th day, i picked at 2 spots. nothing to devastating, and i dont think it set me back in healing, but i said i was going cold turkey so i made yesterday my new day 1. it went well, im seeing so much healing in my face ! (: i guess once you get past a certain point the physical healing goes very fast. i cant remember the last time my face looked this good. i have a LOT of hyperpigmentation but texturally it looks pretty awesome. im very glad too, because i have several big events coming up that i was hoping to look pretty for (: jeez i hope the compulsion doesnt suck me back in.
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May 11, 2012

day 2. successful. i did my makeup and went out and i actually felt pretty for the first time in a long time (: feels like its almost becoming a habit to NOT pick !!!!!!!!
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May 11, 2012

Those days are the best, you should feel so proud of yourself!
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May 11, 2012

Day 9 and Day 10. It is definitely getting harder in some ways each day. Probably because this is usually when I give up. My skin is breaking out everywhere, I think because of all the pregnancy hormones. Not making this process easy on me. As I've said before, I allow myself to pick at two spots each morning because trying to quit cold turkey never works for me. (When I say picking at two spots I don't mean spending probably 20 seconds picking) So far, it has worked great and I've had the self-control to stop after two. Now that there's so much acne, it's really hard to stop at two. But I'm doing it! I had an epiphany two nights ago. I got some saddening news that my younger sister was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. I've looked out for her my whole life and feel very maternal toward her. So the news was very hard to take for me. In the midst of thinking about everything, I felt the extreme urge to have a picking session. I even went to the mirror and started for a few seconds before I caught myself. I realized how often this has happened in the past when I'm anxious or worried about something or someone. It must be a coping mechanism for me and maybe doing something busy with my fingers, like picking, relieves the tension. It's good for me to start to connect the dots and see some of the root issues surrounding my OCD.
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May 11, 2012

10 days is a long time ! im so glad to hear you have made it this long. i think a lot of pickers pick more when they are upset or stressed out. growing up i was always very distant from my family, and usually only had one friend that i kept close. i always felt alone, and i think thats how it all started. i figured out relatively recently that when i pick at my face, for me, its somewhat of an escape. when im picking i dont think about anything else, i go into a kind of trance. almost like meditating or something. i can be picking in the mirror for hours, and not even understand what i have done until i take a step back and actually look at myself, then burst into tears. im sorry to hear about your sister, but you shouldnt take it out on yourself. its not your fault and also not something you can change. all you can do is be supportive, and maybe think about how you need to stop picking even more than you thought you needed to before so that you can be stable for her.
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May 12, 2012

day 3 was good. i really believe that this is my time to heal and overcome my compulsion to pick (:
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May 15, 2012

days 4 and 5 went well. today i picked at 3 spots, so restarting again tomorrow :/
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May 15, 2012

Days 11, 12, 13 and 14. Still can't believe that I've made it this far. I haven't ever done this well when I've tried to stop this habit in the past. I did it differently this time though, I realize that I can't do this on my own and posting honestly in this forum has helped me to stay motivated. Also just being real with myself and setting up boundaries with things that have thrown me off track before. Two weeks is a miracle for me when I consider the 100 times (literally) that I've attempted to stop picking. I've been praying for the strength to "move on" when all I want to do is pick. Right now I can tell you that there is at least 40 different places on my skin that I want to pick at. Staying away from the mirror and keeping my hands off my skin are helping me to not go crazy. Unfortunately yesterday, I caved a few times other than the two spots I allow myself to pick each morning. I didn't go to the mirror which is good, I just scratched at something on my back. Once I did it subconsciously and once purposefully. So I'm repeating my 14th day. I'm still encouraged and so hopeful! If I can do this, you can too.

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